what do my heart say ?

emank gw sempet suka ma dia
tapi ithu dulu
ap yg gw pengen skrg ithu cm sbg tmen dia
tmen baik kalo ithu memungkinkan
dengan gw kya gini pun, gw udah cukup seneng
kita menjadi teman
ithu lebih baik & lebih menyenangkan ^^

tapi apa kata hati gw yg sbenernya ???
that's my BIG question.
just like my last post, i'm easy to be melted.
ithu yang bikin gw bgng dgn prasaan gw
tyap kali gw ngmg ma dia, pasti hati lgsg berubah
berubah dalam arti muncul perasaan yang mancing2 gw buat suka ma dia
tapi sejujurnya,
" i just want to be ur friend
that's much better than when i love u  :) "



conclusion:
menjadikan dia seorang teman ithu jauh lebih baik dan lebih indah daripada menjadikan dia seseorang yang disayangi.. ^^

my heart

my heart.. my feeling..

easy to touch
easy to be melted
easy to be crushed
easy to love someone,
but hard to forget him

when my heart said he's special for me,
it would be hard for me to forget him

eehm..
well that's me, my heart, en my feeling
no one can guess what do i feel even me
sometimes it's hard to find what do i feel

love or friendship ?

teman

semua orang butuh teman
tapi juga butuh keluarga

hmm..
gataw knp, sekarang lg pengen bareng temen trus
kumpul2.. seneng2.. ngobrols.. de el el.
gataw knp, gw lebih enjoy bareng temen2 drpd kluarga
rasana lebih asik en lebih enak aj kalo lg bareng temen2
wpun dlm ati jg taw klo sbenernya kita butuh sosok sebuah kluarga
yang lebih ngerti kita, yang taw bnr2 gmana kita, en yg peduli sama kita

hmpf ..
aneh skali.

conclusion:
gw lebih enjoy bareng temen2 en ngumpul2 bareng ^^

I do believe if GOD has sent the best fams en the best friends for me
thanks GOD  :)

be blessed

senangna dah tgl 1 hr lg uub
dgn plajaran ga mutu ! wekeke.
senang juga dr 4 ulum yg dah klr hasilna, cm rmed 1
itu pun ga guna -- BI  (penting??)
males jg remed tp yha harus ttp rmed huff
* ngerepotin! *

well .. THANKS GOD !
YOU've given the best for me ^^
hope i cud pass the rest  ;)

math

first day for final exams hmpf
bad night to study
cos i couldn't consentrate to study

but..
THANKS GOD !
i still could do it my best today
en i could do it well
both of them were math
thanks GOD ^^

maag

maag ..
what do u think bout this ?
is that a serious disease ?
do i have to choose the foods to eat ?
what kind of foods i can't eat ?

well, all i know are i can't eat this .. eat that .. blablabla ..
but what ?
mom never thinks bout my illness
she always cook what she wanna cook
without thinking bout my illness
she never thinks if it's good for me or not

hmpf
all i can do is just eat the foods
be patient en pray to GOD ..
hope i'll get better soon ! ^^

someone

need someone to be with me
need someone who want to care bout me
need someone who want to listen at me
need someone's shoulder to cry

i do need someone now !

~ YOU are the only answer, GOD ! ~

p.s. i wanna cry huff  T.T

bad things

3 bad things had happened today
hmpf.

1. my boring morns
2. bad news which is shocked me
3. fams problem

should i say this is my bad day again ??

home

home sweet home ??

i dont have it today
T.T

its not a sweet home !
aaaaarrrgghh !!!
get crazy with it !
everybody are shouting !!
damn !!

hate this !!!

this is the way that YOU love ?
Please GOD .. Fill this house with YOUR BLESS !!


* rumah ato kebun binatang?? *

temptation

life is hard
life is so crazy

so many tempting things around us
hard to do this
hard to do that
we often forget to have recourse to HIM

but one thing ..
we have to REMEMBER if we have HIM in our life
HE's there to help us
HE's waiting for us to listen at HIM
don't just rely on yourself,
but you have to rely on HIM for everything

don't forget to pray for each problems you have ^^
LOVE You, JESUS !

morns

boring morns
with nothing to do
en headache

so badd ..
still waiting till they come back
hmpf.

complicated

falling in love ?
first sight ?
is that all what i feel ?

well..
i dont think so
i dont feel that he's so special
it was just for fun
fun to meet him as my friend
meet someone to be my friend

do i love him ?
he's nice.
he's kind.
he's good at guitar.
he's a good person.
means i love him just as my friend
nice to know en meet you ^^

everything ~

sahabat adalah segalanya

seorang sahabat
mau meluangkan waktu untuk berbagi
mau mengerti keadaan sahabatnya
mau peduli terhadap sahabatnya

sahabat
tidak pernah merasa dirinya lebih hebat
mau terbuka mengenai dirinya
selalu mengingatkan apa yang terbaik untuk kita
menjadi motivator yang hebat

namun ..
terkadang memang membuat iri
tapi justru kita tidak boleh iri
melainkan belajar dari pengalaman
pengalaman diri sendiri dan sahabat


I DO LOVE MY BESTIESS !!
^ aku sayang kalian ^
SAHABAT SELAMANYA :)
mwah *.*

syalalala

nice morning ^^
woke up en went to school earlier
school day just like usual
nothing bad happened xP

FUN DAY
17.45 went to da mall for Tania's surprise
yey, we succeed ! hihi
Happy Sweet 17th Birthday, gurl !
laff u, mwah !
dont cry beibh.
eventhough it was de cry of happiness hahaha
American Grill .. nice place ^^
thanks to the waiter for de vest xP

Dinner time en after that de laughing time
hahahahaha.
was such the best laugh i've done i think !
damn so crazy .. wekekekeke.
tired ?
yeah really !!
we moved to watch RAN in Lapiz
yea beibh. you are COOLL !!!

* Pandangan Pertama *

then met beqh en her church friends ^^
FUN DAY ~
FUN NIGHT ~
FUN all the time !

sunset lover

knikmatan sushi

hoaahh..
hr yg cukup menyenangkan ^^
feel this day with happy feeling
ngidam sushi jg sudah terpuaskan hr ini
hahahaha.
yummy salmon crispy !
sangat mengenyangkan xP

sushi groove mkg 3 ?
ayo serbuuu !! hahaha.

secret guy

long time ago
in the church
we've met each other
no talk
no chat
not even say 'hi'
how long?
more than 2 years actually
but ..
only cos of this situation
we can talk to each other
eventhough it's still a short convo
^^

*secret guy*
first sight?
don't think so
we're still friends
hahaha
GLAD to know you
hope we'll be friends forever
:p

GOD's answer

bad morning
fun friends
happy day
tiring day
silent night
sleep well
that's what had happened to me
on Friday, May 16th 2008

morning 'sate'
of course with the morning prayer
happy morning
and soon ..
that's what has happened to me 'till now
still have a half time for this day

GOOD 'SATE'
thanks GOD
for YOUR reflection this morning
YOU've answer all of my questions
questions about my problems
i had no idea how to solve it
but now YOU've given the BEST answer of it
thanks GOD

I LOVE YOU, LORD !!

sushi

sushi oh sushi
makanan lezat yg layak untuk dilahap
knp kao sungguh enak ya sushi ??

hahahahaha.
tiba2 ngidam sushi ne xP
kpn yo mkn2 sushi lg ?!

ayo teman mkn sushi bersama !

* total kt sushi: 6 kata

a day of mine

bad morns is coming ..

1st - cudn't sleep well for 2 nites
2nd - didn't study seriously for the exam
3rd - i was late to go to school
4th - of course i cudn't do my best for that damn exam

i was too shock to face all of it
4 things made me down in 1 time
made me feel that i was so stupid
the most stupid thing i've done
i cried in that time
it's not really me at school!
i tried to calm myself

friends are everything for me.
what made me back to my good mood are my friends
they did nothing to me
they just care bout me
but they made me feels better with their laugh ^^

LOVE my friends.
LOVE my bestie who give me support when i'm down.
thanks GOD for them ..

2 bad days

never realize that i'm gonna be this sad for 2 days
i've got a beautiful en tiring day on monday
but the rest ..
on tuesday en wednesday,
wat did i feel ??
loneliness & bored
all i can say is only I NEED A FRIEND

2 days have a very bad mood
damn i hate it !
1st day, i slept a lot en i cried a lot
2nd day, try to change my mood but yeaa it was almost failed
i still cried en i still felt lonely

i do need friends
i do need some refreshing
i do need HIM to be here with me :)

hmpf

sepii ..
bosan ..
bgng mo ngaps ..

aku butuh teman !
aku butuh teman !
aku butuh teman !
aku butuh teman !

hiburan

siank nan cerah dgn alarm yg akhirna m'bangunkanku

badmud ?
masi tersisa dqit seh
ap doonx yg m'hibur ??
yaps !
ad 1 hal yg sgt m'hibur hati
silahkan baca posting tatia d blog ria
wakakaka makasih ta bwad hiburan ini
wpun sdqit menertawai tman hahaha

cry

cry..
cry..
cry..

can't stop crying for a long time
hate this situation !
hate to be lonely ..
need someone to be here
need someone to hug me when i cry
need someone to care bout me

hmpf..
tiring day with full of bored,
full of loneliness,
full of sleep,
en full of tears.

need YOU by my side ..

( 13 mei 2008 )

bad day

feel so lonely..
feel so bored..
feel so far away with my fams..
'n almost can't control my emotion..

~ thanks GOD! YOU still remind me not to show my emotion.. ^^

need HIM

Tuhan ingin memakai kita menjadi agen perubahan. Tidak harus perubahan besar. Perubahan kecil pun bisa sangat berarti. Kehadiran kita bisa menyentuh dan mengubah hidup orang-orang di sekitar kita. Membuat orang merasa senang, dikasihi, dan dihargai. Hadiah atau pujian kecil bisa mengenyahkan kesuraman hati seorang teman. Sebuah panggilan telepon atau e-mail bisa membuat sahabat kita merasa dicintai. Jadilah agen perubahan hari ini!

pelajaran yg sangat baguss buat qta sbg anak2 ALLAH
renungan singkat yang indah kalau qta bnar2 mau memahaminya ^^
I'll do my best to share YOUR blessing with others !

sing it !
NKB 200 'Di Jalan Hidup yang Lebar, Sempit'

lonely day

this is de day..
de day which full of sleep
de day which full of tears
de day which full of loneliness

can't say anything
everybody was busy with what they do
don't care bout me
feel so lonely with nothing to do

tears were out of my eyes
what could i do just sleep 'n pray
that's all ..

hmpf..
feel so tired 'n lonely today :(

Dea - Jc

wake up @ 5.30 only for dea
pegi k hums dea brg beqh jam 6 am
balik k hums jam 7 am
sampe d hums, beqh lgsg molor 4 jem
hahaha lucu mlihat dy tertidur pulass :p

jam 10.30 dibangunkan dgn muka linglung 'n masi cape
11.30 brgkat k mol ktm kty tla meli robby tommy
nyusun rncana bwad clue2nya
survei tmpat 'n saatna braksi tpat pk 15.15
standby d tmpat masing2
clue demi clue dicari 'n dilewatin Jc
perjalanan panj dgn ktemu kita2 yg bs diblg 'kepergok'
TERFATAL mnurut gw ialah wkt ktm gw
smwa emank dah ktauan, tp palink hancur saat ktm gw
Jc ngeliat icha sdg membungkuk 'n berbicara dgn para komploters di parkiran lapiz lt.1
perjuangan panj di pos pertama: burger king & pos k2 trakhir: parkiran lapiz
singkat crita..
akhirna Jc bs pulang k hums ndiri dgn naek angkot dgn hanya bermodalkan 4.000 rupiah
angkot yg berjalan lamaaaa dgn rute yg muter2
kita membuntuti itu angkot tnpa disadari oleh Jc
seruuu !!
Sampe d dpn gerbang pintu warga gadink kirana
seharusna Jc dah dijempud oleh si supir
tetapiiiii ...
tiba2 wkt qta dah msk komplex, gw mlihat sesosok prempuan berbaju putih 'n cln pndek sdg berjalan kaki
OMG !! gw kaget krn itu sgt tidak sesuai rncana
akhirna Jc msk hums, gw beqh dll naq2 mol msk k tmpt persmbunyian wynne 'n gby
asli gw lemes bgt !
gw duduk trus boboan d pundak beqh wekeke
teler gila ><
lanjutt..
trus muter2 hums sampe akhirna di atap ktm adam
bis itu jc mulai mcritakan perjalanan panj dr a-z sampe dy balik k hums lg

2 THUMBS UP 'n STANDING APPLAUSE to all of us !
thanks for every sacrifice ^^
GOOD JOB :)

HAPPY SWEET 17th BIRTHDAY, Dea 'n Jc !!

need or not

umm..
talkin bout english course.
do i need it or not ?

well i know i'm not good in english especially in vocab
'the worst part of my english is all about vocab huff.'
but there's a consideration that makes me confused
if i need to take the course or not
my sist told my mom that my english is ok
but i only need to 'practice'
'practice' means ..
hear some english songs,
learn to sing it with the right pronounciation,
read some english book,
or many things that can makes me get so many new vocab

cos of that, i started thinkin twice to take it
my consideration are:
1. i wanna go for conversation class, but there's only in sat for 3 hours & most of them are the workers
2. i do need english course, but if i just need to 'practice', i can do it just via internet 'n hear some songs in english
3. it's a bit expensive 'n not all of the courses are good

so my question ...
do i need this course or not ??

p.s. for me, it's better to have a convo class with de native teacher than with de indonesian teacher ! but it's very expensive ~~

bersahabat dengan-NYA

Yohanes 15:14
"Kamu adalah sahabat-Ku..."

Read Yohanes 15: 11-15

Sahabat adalah orang yang kepadanya kita percaya. Dengan seorang sahabat kita dapat menceritakan semua kesesakan bahkan rahasia kita, sehingga kita beroleh kelegaan, ketenangan, dan kedamaian. Seorang sahabat bersedia memahami keadaan kita meski belum tentu selalu menyetujui pilihan-pilihan kita. Dengan sahabat, kita berani menjadi diri sendiri, tampil apa adanya tanpa perlu memakai polesan dan mengupayakan kesan tertentu.

Yesus berkata kepada kita, "Aku menyebut kamu sahabat, karena Aku telah memberitahukan kepada kamu segala sesuatu yang telah Kudengar dari Bapa-Ku" (ayat 15). Semua yang penting dan perlu telah Dia bagikan kepada sahabat-sahabat-Nya. Wow, betapa terhormatnya kita, karena Yesus bersedia merendahkan diri dan memperlakukan kita sebagai sahabat-Nya. Bukan karena kita layak, melainkan karena Yesus melayakkan kita menjadi sahabat-Nya, sehingga Dia mau membagikan "rahasia"-Nya kepada kita, yakni segala sesuatu yang Dia ketahui dari Bapa-Nya. Bukan itu saja! Pada puncak pernyataan kasih-Nya, Dia bahkan memberikan nyawa-Nya untuk kita, sahabat-sahabat-Nya (ayat 13).

Pertanyaannya, apakah kita juga menjadikan Yesus sahabat kita? Sungguhkah kita rela memercayakan semua rahasia kepada-Nya, dan memberi tahu Dia tentang semua yang kita lakukan dan pergumulkan? Lebih jauh lagi, apakah kita juga rela memberikan nyawa kita demi Dia, Sahabat kita? Bahwa Yesus adalah Sahabat kita, itu pasti. Bahwa kita adalah sahabat Yesus, itu yang harus dibuktikan -DKL

JIKA KITA MELAKUKAN KEHENDAK ALLAH DALAM SEGALA HAL KITA AKAN DIPIMPIN KEPADA HIDUP YANG BAHAGIA
- THECLA MERLO -

taken from: Renungan Harian - Senin, 5 Mei 2008

hope

harapan ..
hanyalah sebuah kata yg mungkin tak layak tuk ku rasakan

harapan kosong ..
itu yg kurasakan saat ini
sebuah kata yang memang benar sangat tidak layak untukku
tidak ada lagi harapan
tidak banyak pula yg dapat kulakukan
ku hanya perlu bersabar, tegar, mengalah, dan menerima kenyataan
ku tahu itu memang sulit
tp itulah yang harus kulakukan
bersembunyi dibalik semua kenyataan yang ada

satu hal yg kuinginkan
membuang jauh2 prasaan itu
ingin semuanya cepat berakhir
tnpa ku harus menyiksa diriku sendiri dengan perasaan ini
menyiksa diriku sendiri dengan sebuah harapan kosong
harapan yg tak mungkin terkabulkan untukku

~~

surprise Gby !!

Happy swit 17th birthday Gabbuu ^^
Sat. May 3rd, 2008
Nine Sport Launch, Mangdu Square

Thanks for that beautiful party beibh.
Sukses m'jlnkan rencana 2x surprise
1st - surprise cake from Riana dll..
2nd - surprise candle
Yeah we did it !!
Thanks for that beautiful plan
Gby was sooo happy as happy as me :)
* she almost cried .. yey ! *

seru.. tak terduga.. menyenangkan..
never thought its gonna be like this
i almost cried too when i hugged gby after the photo session huhu
tengkyu gby for the party ^^

beautiful day

can u imagine that i cud go to school like 15 mins b4 de bell rang ??
hahaha well i did it today
dunno why i cud do everything at home quicker than usually
went to school n studied sucks math again
hate it really !
i cudnt no my best hmpf

back to our topic ...
enjoy every single thing at school
talk 'n laugh for de whole day
came back home then went to de mall
ate BURGER KING 'n bought STARBUCKS
damn feels like i was in a heaven ! hahaha
did so much talkin with Riri till Vonny came
met Atenk en let's go to de cinema ^^
we watched 'IRON MAN' togetha
(member: icha mike atenk riri vonny)
DAMN COOL !! haha

back home then i do my 'sate' with the BEAUTIFUL ORACLE too ^^
thanks GOD for this day !
remind me to pray every morning before i start my day
that's wat i want from long long time ago, but i havent started yet
i really wanna doing it
remind me for it .. thanks GOD !

*ga nyesel ntn nie film huahahaha*
enjoy your beautiful day in our beautiful life :)

butuh refreshing !!

- 1 Mei 2008 -
huaah ...
perjuangan bljr mat
susah nie kali ini T.T
try to concentrate .. hmpf.

need some refreshing !
ayo kawan qta jln2
ga sabar pgn k gby
rame2 n seru2an
ga betah hr ini d hums ndirian huh
bljr pula mlm na
aaarrghh.
need some refreshing !!!!

kenaikan Yesus Kristus

libur .. yeaa !
its good 2day ^^
woke up at 8.00 am
then go to de church :)
Thanks for YOUR beautiful oracle !

Our plan was:
1. go to Bogor to eat macaroni schotle, then go to Kebun Raya Bogor
2. eat in 'Mie Aceh'
~~~~~
all of what we have planned was just canceled without any confirmation to me
i was almost angry but then i started to think twice
i need some rest for my body
so i just stayed at home till de lunch
suddenly dad asked me to drive a car *practicing* for 30mins only ^^
back home 'n slept ...
woke up, online again, chatting, 'n studying finally

well dats my day
de whole day only at home
a bit angry cos all of de plan was canceled
n i spent my day just at home alone
Everybody cud go everywhere without me hmpf.