Leadeship Character Camp

tepat 1 minggu sudah terlewati waktu setelah Outbond berakhir

d' Jungle on 2nd - 4th of October, 2009
Leadership Character Camp with Prasetiya Mulya Business School
type: Military Camp - team from Mentari -

no watch,, no shower,, no poop,, no.. no.. and no..
sleep in a tent using the sleeping bag and DUREN if you made mistakes
( DUREN : push up for boys & skotjump for girls )
ohh don't forget bout our baby egg as our life and GaDis *galon disiplin*

right at 6.30 am in the morning on 2nd of Oct, we were together at Plaza. meet each other and listen to our commandant for every instructions he gave. prepare for everything and let's go using the small 'tronton'. It was fun,, it was tiring,, it was stressing,, and it was anything.. don't know how to describe but i was soo tired at that time. till we arrived at our campsite, but still need to walk like 5 mins to go up to our activity area. meet the other commandants, start our camp, start to be disipline, and start to have fun together. 1st day was so bad with new rules we've just got. then finally we went to sleep almost 12 o'clock midnight. but then at 3am in the morning, they woke us up and using the sirine, we need to be together with our complete attribute in front of them out from our tents.

the 2nd day has just start after that. we played the morning games per station before we got our breakfast. for me,, we weren't got our solidarity yet at the beginning, but after 2-3 stations we pass, we could build our solidarity till we could do the best. breakfast was done, and we continued to our next stations, did the best for everystation. we had fun together,, we felt tired together,, we supported each other as well,, we cheer each other up too,, and many things we did together in our group. with the effort and medal,, it supported us soo deeply to give the best at that station. it's fun! but the worst thing ever was the lunch or dinner time, we only got 10-15 mins for everymeal and we have to eat all the foods we got. the next tiring day has just finished with the best closing ever by running out in the middle of the fire with the nicest song i've heard. I felt amazing at that time and proud of myself..

the next day,, we woke up at 5 i guess. then we continued our journey for the rest of the stations / games. we only got 2 stations left, so we had a free time to be there waiting for the other groups to finish it. after all of that, we met up again in the first activity area and did the closing game. fire up the bonfire just by using 2 candles, but we got water in the middle of our journey to fire up that bonfire. well we were succeed at the 9th chance hahaha poor us but we did our best. after that, we shouted really loud 'yes we can!' and woow!! i was melting at that time haha everybody looks really happy.. till we got our medal which means we've just pass our orientation time with our real sacrifations. nice closing :)

well that's all for now,, i need to sleep like now cause i feel tired already haha
thanks for every experiences i've got..
thanks to GOD as well for safing my life and keep myself fit..

Prasetiya Mulya Business School

wahh lama juga lebi dr sebulan saia mninggalkan blog ini haha
stelah dipikir2 ini waktu yg pas aja bwad nulis blog,
scr bosen seharian di rmh ga bs mnipu juga rawr..

2 minggu lalu adalah awal dari perjalanan hidup gw di uni
hmm awalna ya gitu dehh masi dlm masa pencarian teman2 baru
tp stelah dijalanin en berkat ospek juga, gw dpt juga tmn2 yg asik
ospek emank blom kelar, tp dr 2 mgg yg lalu jg kul gw dah mulai
means mulai nya bareng hahaha mbuat gw pinda rmh ke kampus
kehidupan gw pun brubah drastis!
MINIMAL 12 jem waktu gw diluangkan di kampus
di rmh pun cm untuk bangun, mkn pagi, en tdur hahaha
ptama2 sih gila, tapi asikk jg koq, aplg stelah dpt tmn dqet
di kelas pun gw dpt tmn2 yg gilak2 punya, tmn ktawa2 en tmn bljr jg
ga bs boonk klo mrk gokil en sarap semua hahaha seruu..

IP 2009 - it's ospek time!!
all i can say, semwa ada waktunya...
waktu kita awal kenalan, wkt kita kagum 1 sama lain, wkt kita mulai knal,
wkt kita mulai kliatan smwa kburukan kita, wkt kita mulai ga suka sama tmn2 kita,
sampe akhirna meluap semua emosi di klompok ospek gw hahaha
gokil jg kalo diinget2, tapi ya emank itu kenyataannya
wpun bgitu, aku ttp dpt tmn yg jauhh lebi baik dr mrk2 yg ga suka ma gw
maap2 ajah klo gw ga suka dgn cara kalian bgitu, tp gw m'hargai koq
thanks jg yahh kawan2ku yg mau ngertiin en nemenin gw klo mulai kesel hehe
stiap hari di kampus hanya untuk IP yg mulai pk 16.20..
dari tugas yg simple, sampe tugas business plan yg bqin kita ngeluarin smwa emosi kita
but that's not the point haha mgkin emank butuh brantem dl br bs menank hahaha
thanks atas kerja keras kalian wpun gw ga suka kalian pake emosi wkt kerja
kita juara 1 lohhhh!!!
ohh ya, 1 lagi yg kita menank jg,, tugas wawancara yg dkumpulin dlm btk facebook :)
dari tugas2 yang dikasi slama ospek ini, jelas banget keliatan
PMBS itu sgt mengutamakan COMPETITION..!!
semua dihargai, kalo emank itu baik, point plus lah yg kita dpt
tp sebalikna, klo kita palink buruk, ada konsekuensi yg harus ditanggung
ini semua bner2 mdidik kita untuk bkerja keras en saingan bangett eui
seru lahh buat gw..

kuliah
hmm apa ya? baru 1 mgg belajar, brasa seruuu..
tp bgitu ngerjain tugas, bujibunenk!!
ga ngerti bahasa ing nya! hahahaha edan itu buku ;p
tp gpp lahh, itunk2 blajar jg haha smangadh2!!
buat tmn2 kelas yg gokil jg waoow.. saludh!!

overall,,
i miss my friends at Uni :)
kao juga buu yg lagi mudik ke Palembang hihi balik doonkk pgn jln2 hahahaha.

Pictures of a WONDERFUL Summer 2009

Austhreim, NORWAY -

Stockholm, Sweden -

WONDERFUL Summer Moment in Northern Scandinavia (part three)

more time in Sweden..

23rd of July was the day that we should say goodbye to the campsite and some people who should leave on that day.. It was really bad cause Nuknik from Thailand was the first person who left from the camp. She left at 9am in the morning, then Jasper at 12pm in the afternoon :( It was really bad that we should say goodbye them before the camp exactly ended. After that, we needed to clean allll the stuffs at the campsite like before. Collect all the things together and cleaning of course. 3pm is coming so we needed to go and said goodbye to the staffs except Nic who will accompany us to the hostel. On the way to the hostel, Frida, Ellinor, and Merilin should go to central station to put their luggage in the locker. At the hostel, we were just laying down and changed clothes or took a shower then we went out again to meet that 3 girls at Slussen cause they will leave in the evening. We went together to subway for our lunch, but i didnt eat till we needed to say goodbye to them :'( More people has just left that day.. We just walked around, bought some beers, and met up again in a beer or alcohol party where we couldn't buy any cause we need to be 21 haha. So we moved to the park, drank some beers, played a drinking game, and suddenly it was raining so hard, so from under the tree we decided to move to the subway. There were so funny stuffs we've done there hahaha. Since that time, we seperated the group between the people who have 18 years old id card with the people who dont have.

I was the one who went out with the 18 years old group hahaha we just hangout together, find some bars, drank beers and had fun a lot, till we went to a club and dance!! Yeaa baby.. It was me, Mari, Martin, Thomas, Eli, Amy. We were out till 3am under the rain with the really cold weather, sucks!! So i decided to go in to the hostel, changed my outfits and took a rest for like only 1 or 2 hours. When i woke up, another people was ready to say goodbye :'(

I started crying when i hugged my bestfriend, Eirin and Mari. Mari left that morning and i was sooo freaking sad hmpf.. and Henrik with Anna as well. After saying goodbye to them and cried, we slept again till we woke up at the midday, but while we were sleeping, Billy also left from the hostel. In the afternoon, Luis also left. It was a really bad day for me cause i felt so empty without some people who had left before :( i was in a badmud till Eirin wanted a cheerful Icha. So i took a nap for a while, took a shower, and ready to go to meet all the rest of the partcipants who were still there and the staffs. We had dinner together at the pizza restaurant, then at the park which has a really nice view, we were just drinking, talking, and stuffs, also met Oliver as the guitarist (poor guy). At midnight, we sang happy birthday to Cris together. ohhh She was drunk at that night hahaha it was funny :p After that time, we hangaround together to find some good bar or clubs to go in, but we had a pretty bad bar (>.<) so after that, cause its late already, so me, Eli, Martin, and Cris decided to back at the hostel. The Colombians left at 6am (the next day) and it was 4am, so i just slept only for two hours and i should said goodbye again :(

I didn't cry at that time, i was just woke up so hard for me to cry.. I didn't sleep again cause in an hour, Mike and Amy left as well, so I just cried in Eli's bed :'( After they left, me and Eirin went back to the room, cried together till we fell asleep together in the same bed. Suddenly, Ran came and woke Eirin up cause they needed to be ready to put all the things at the central station, so i needed to wake up as well and i cried again, although that's not the time to say goodbye yet. They went out first, me and Cris went out together to meet them again and had lunch together at the central station. Ohh well.. after lunch we should run to catch up the time for the bus to the airport. It's so memorable cause we needed to run out to the street only to say goodbye to the Norwegians cause it's confusing to explain haha. Hell yeaa, i cried again :'( Then we were back to the central station to meet Fred, but we decided to go back to the hostel and again said goodbye to Paula, Marzia, Andrea, Fred and i cried again hahaha.

4 people left now.. me, Cris, Karlota, and Thomas

We went out to someplace i dont remember, but at least we still had something to do. We had dinner at the good ThaiFoods shop and at night we stayed out in the rock up to the park. The next day, we just went out to the oldtown, bought some things, and just walked around till at night we should go to the central station. Again ohh again we said goodbye to Cris and i almost cried. Then we bought some beers again and stayed at the rock again as usual. We stayed up late again this day. 3 people left in the next morning.. Thomas woke up early, so i woke up as well and took a shower, packed my things and Thomas has just gone hahaha. So I decided to go out as well after i'm done pack my things. I bought a bread for breakfast, went to the back changed my money, and back to the hostel. Met Thomas and woke Karlota up, then had a boat sightseeing till we wee hungry and had burger as our lunch :D

Walked around the Old Town Street, stayed for a while, back to the hostel, out again for beers, and back to the hostel for sleep. At the next day, we woke up early and went to the airport without breakfast (>.<) cause we were in hurry for Thomas' flight. So in front of the check-in counter, we said goodbye again to Thomas but i couldn't cry anymore. Then we went to anoter terminal for Karlota, had some chit.chat outside, ate Mc.Donalds, stayed with nothing to do, till the time for Karlota to check-in and again ohh again I needed to say goodbye to the last person i met at the camp who left from Sweden. Walked alone to my terminal, Eirin called me and had 15minutes talks, cried together again, and said goodbye again :( thanks for calling me and said goodbye to me.. wait for 1 or 2 more hours till the time for check-in and flew to Holland. When the plane started to move, I started crying again and said goodbye to Sweden.. which the people around was looking at me hahaha lol

At the Holland, tried to catch up the time for check-in, meet Om Paulus, shared a lot fun things from our camps, and here we are back in Indonesia :)

conclusion:

it was FUN.. it was SAD.. it was MEMORABLE.. it was AMAZING.. it was NICE being in Sweden.. it was TIRING.. it was AWESOME..

.. done,, 4 hours to write these 3 full blogs haha hope you enjoy it! ..

WONDERFUL Summer Moment in Northern Scandinavia (part two)

Sweden ohh Sweden, arrived on 2nd of July in the afternoon and wait at the airport for 4 hours before i went to the central station. hmm.. It was confusing cause i was alone in the middle of unknown place, but i need to survive till i meet my host family at the central station with my 2 heavy luggages and a box of noodles. I was waiting for almost an hour alone till they found me and Cris from Brazil after that. First Impression of her,, she's cool, crazy, talkative, and... many more haha she's fun! A little bit chit.chat with her till the bedtime and on the next day, we woke up early and got ready to go to the meeting point. They drove us to the central station to meet Mari from Brazil as well. but suddenly, there were 3 people or just a guy who asked Cris if She's from CISV, and they are the Norwegians (Henrik, Eirin, Ran) - Henrik recognized me anyway, that's why he came to ask Cris if we were from CISV haha. Then Mari came and not too long, Ellinor from Sweden and Paula from Finland came as well cause they had an appoinment to meet the Norwegians there. Finally Billy came to meet us as well. And yeaa time to put our luggages at the locker, so we could go around the city or the shopping area. Well, cause we were so many people there, so we decided to separate the group and met up again at the central station at the time we've decided and go to Slussen as our meeting point together. I was with Mari, Billy, and Cris just hang.around to see the nice city and Mari took some pictures of it. and it's..

Slussen tiimmeee!! We were there and met up the rest of the participants, had a small chatting to introduce ourself, met also the guy from the Swedish CISV people who'll bring us to the campsite. We used the bus to go to the campsite, but 1 stop before our campsite's stop, the staffs went it to the us with some funny outfits hahaha. At the camp, they introduced their self as the staffs and the campsite. Then we had freetime, some of them went swimming, but some of us just sit together took some photos and made some fun. ohh yeaa,, again i met Fred as my Village leader from Canada, he was my staff at this Seminar Camp hahaha cool uhh met 3 people in the same summer from my village camp 2002 :)

I think it's enough to tell about my first and 2nd day in Sweden haha now i need to talk about the whole camp..

First of all, i would liketo say I LOVE THIS SEMINAR CAMP A LOT!!! i dont know how to express it, but i'm proud of this camp. For the first and the second day, we didnt do too much planning cause all the staffs had prepared all the things to bring us understand how make the rules, how to make the schedule, how to make a good planning group, what activities and energizers, how to make a really good and meaningful activities, and so on.. For me, they did really well and creative.

Then like in the 2nd day to be there, We had our First Camp Meeting which was really hard cause we needed to talk a lot of things there and we haven't known well yet to each other, so we hadn't understand yet about everyperson's characters. We took so much time for it till we decided our new calender, rules, planning group, cooking group, cleaning group, and the schedule, also the people who were responsible to write it down on the paper. Well yeaa,, It was a really hardwork to do with so many stuffs to think for 3 weeks at the camp. By the time goes by, finally we got along to each other, we had fun together with some jokes and stupid things to do. But beside that, of course we also had so many problems in it, like about the cleaning which was really dirty at the toilet, cleaning for the dishes as well, about respect each other, and blablabla.. so many problems makes me don't remember all of it haha. That's why we had a lot of camp meeting while we were at the camp, just to find the solutions and also we should be responsible with everything we've decide.

At the camp, we had a pretty good schedule of activity and the type of the activities. I'm proud to all of you who have been thinking about a really nice, great, and meaningful games. We did a really good plans for it. Tiring and Stressfull, that's what happened to us.. Hmm.. We didn't have any theme for our own camp and at first it's hard for me to make the activity, but i tried to learn how to make a really god activities with so many ideas without the same point which we have to be related into it. It opens my mind a lot cause now i have a lot of ideas about the activities after we've done all the best activities ever!! All the activities what we've done are mostly related to the real life, it's kinda simulation games. Simulation games is one of the hardest games to prepare and we should really well-planned for it. But it's fun after we've succeed to do it!

Bout the friendship.. hmm.. This camp is the best ever!! I've never been like this before as crazy as the others, as talk.ative as the others, shared a lot of things i've known as my knowledge with them, and things i've never done before in my camps with CISV. And in this camp, I absolutely changed a lot! That's why i could feel the friendship between us, i could enjoy the time being there, i could forget allll the things in my real life, even my family or my friends or my hometown, i just forgot them for 4 weeks in Europe. It means i had something special from this camp and I'm proud to be myself..

At the last full day at the camp, we had a lot of things to do, like writting letters to all of us and print all the things for our campshirt. It was freaking wonderful for me..

conclusion:

1. I improve my english a lot!

2. I learnt a lot from the activities, from the situation, from the country, from the habit, from the differences, from respect each other, how to react, and many things..

3. I had a lot close friends and bestfriends

4. I learnt how to cook hahahaha

5. I learnt to be more mature than before

6. mooorreee and moooreeee.......

.. to be continued ..

WONDERFUL Summer Moment in Northern Scandinavia (part one)

These are my schedule for the last summer in Northern Scandinavia, Europe..

28th of June flew to Norway alone with so much worried and tears cause i felt friendsick while i was in Malaysia for transit haha embrassing i know. 29th of June finally i arrived in Norway after a loooonnngg trip from Malaysia to Holland, then Norway. I was there till the 2nd of July and moved to Sweden for my LOVELY Amazing Seminar Camp which started on the 3rd of July and ended on the 23rd of July, but i stayed for 5 more nights in Sweden after the camp. So i went back home on the 28th of July an arrived in Jakarta, Indonesia on 29th of July evening.

Yeapp! And now is the time to talk about what i've done there..

Norway ohh Norway, how cool and WONDERFUL is Austhreim hometown ~ an hour from Bergen!! haha Ohh Well, 29th of June was the date when Tone Marit H. Dyrkolbotn a.k.a Tonis was waiting for me at the airport. Waved our hands when i saw her from above before i took my luggages, then took my 2 small luggages which were heavy and a little noodle box, and WOW!! I met her again, hugged her, some chit.chat, but still i felt incredible to be there with her by my own trip hahaha. So my first day in Norway had just started, she drove me back to her house, but before that we met her cousin first at her job place thingie and went to the minisupermarket to buy some juices and chocolates. In the evening, we went to see the islands and took some photos, ending up with eating strawberries, including played the trampoline with Sara as well as her crazy friend till midnight (cause they werent dark yet till midnight haha which is so damn different with Indonesia). Well It was a really nice view there, Love It!

30th of June is the time for Bergen. I was there with my special and the best guide ever in Norway, she's Tonis hahaha. Visited the fish market, Bryggen (which one is this, i forget haha oops, should ask her again lol), and Fløyen ~ Fløibanen *small train to go up to the mountain*. Up to the mountain, we played with the trolls in the forest, ate ice cream, and enjoying the really really beutiful view over Bergen! Yay! Then we visited Tonis' grandma, she ordered us strawberries and watermelon with the delicious vanilla sauce, that was good haha like it really much! And this is my new experience that i should be proud of hahaha I filled the gasoline on a car, yahaaa!! In the evening, we went to the new Kebab Store and met up some of her friends till we were home, talked to her family a bit and gudnite then ~

1st of July as my last full day in norway :( Woke up early this day cause we wanted to go to the Dyrkolbotn Mountain by using the COOL yellow car without the roof all the way to go there. We went through the tunnels inside the mountain on the way to that mountain haha. Hmm well, go to the other mountain with a car without roof and went trough the tunnels, including the special view and nice weather there were really AWESOME and MEMORABLE for me wohoo! Then we arrived in the mountain, took some stuffs for row the boat more up of that mountain. So we needed to hike a bit to go to the lake, prepared all the things, and this is the time for me to go fishing haha again and again, this was my first experience to do it, but i got one! Yeaa and Tonis taught me how to kill the fish *eww*. Then we decided to stop in the nice and good place to sunbathing which we fell asleep for 2 hours without the SUNCream (>.<) till I became darker cause i got tan and Tonis became red/pink cause she got sunburned haha. Back to the mountain's house as their family house, ate chicken with her uncle and his partner. It's time to go home with another way to go. Arrived in her house and met Sara again cause she wanted to say goodbye to me :( So, we played a bit in front of her house before we had Rømmegraut (Sour-Cream Porridge) and Fenalår (sheep-hip).

2nd of July, means i needed to leave Norway and went to Sweden :'( Woke up early to catch up the time cause we decided to go to Hanne's house. Once again, WOW!! After 7 years we just got in contact by using facebook, now i could meet her again face.to.face for real hahaha. Half an hour only to talk with her cause i needed to go to Flesland Airport as soon as possible. An hour had just left and i was there at the airport, checked-in, and *hmpf I hate this to say goodbye* hugged her with saying goodbye. I felt so bad and I cried a bit when i hugged her :( At the toilet, at the plane, till at the Arlanda Airport in Sweden, cried a lot cause i miss my sister called Tonis a lot..

but I had a really WONDERFUL trip with you, sist! I won't forget that time and I'll be back again someday and somehow hahaha orrrr... How about you go to Indonesia? I'll wait for you and we're really welcome to you..

Conclusion:

1. I've learnt a loooottt of new things in this hometown, like how to eat the bread, how to slice the cheese, how to fill the gasoline in a car, how to row the boat, how to go fishing, and there are stil a lot of things i can't mention here.

2. I could feel the pretty cool place which is so different situation and condition with a big city in Jakarta and I LOVE being there with the nice weather.

3. I met a lot of new friends

4. I learnt some Norwegian words, songs, and etc.

5. more, more, and more....

.. to be continued ..

who says family is everything?

Everybody says if "Family is GOD's best present!!"
but for me, i still feel Nothing Special with my family..
what's so special from them?? what can you do with them??

NGIRI, itu kata yg slalu aja ad di otak gw klo ngmg soal fams ma org lain
MALU, itu jg yg bs gw rasain kalo lagi ngmg ttg fams
knapa? ada apa? hmm..
jawabannya krn gw masih mrasa ga nyaman dgn kluarga gw ndiri
kluarga gw terdiri dr org2 yg blooommm bs nerima keadaan yg laen, tmasuk gw
kita slalu jalan dgn ego kita masing2, bahkan ad yg ga sadar dgn klemahannya
dan kalo ditegur malah keras kepala en ngotot mati2an
tapi ada juga yg mempermasalahkan hal kecil jadi hal besar
cape jujurlahh!! males rasanya sama kluarga, wpun gw masi blajar mghargai mrk

mungkin ini jadi salah satu alesan knapa gw sayang bgt sama sahabat2 gw
sahabat2 yg udah gw percaya untuk gw bs curhat, nangis, crita, dan ditrima nasihatna
ga cuma sahabat2 di Indo, tp sahabat2 dr camp gw juga gw sayang bgt
ini point penting bwad gw pribadi yg mau nyari seseorang yg bs ngerti gw
seseorang yg mau negur gw bkn dgn cara maksa untuk bs brubah saat itu juga
thanks a lot for all of my best friend..
but i need to say sorry to all of you, cause of these problems, sometimes i can be annoying
cause i really LOVE you and need you, of course i dont wanna lose you :(

my own dream family yaa cm byar gw stidakna bs nyaman dgn kalian,
but HOW ????

sampe skarang, tiap kali ada masalah dtg, gw cm bisa
sabar. dengerin mreka ngoceh. diem. dan tegar.!!

me, me, and me.

Soooo,, now it's time to talk bout me, me, and me.
after the long week i had my trip to Java with fams,
now i'm waiting for my next trip which it will start on sunday.
iyay! it's been a long time i've been waiting for..
and finally here's the time to travel alone just by myself ~

hmm.. 'ready or not, i MUST en SHOULD be ready for this !!'
that's my motto for now. why???
why oh why, bcoz it's 2 days left for me to go.
the day after tomorrow is the time for Europe Trip !
surely,, i'm pretty excited for that and can't wait for it..
come on support me !!! yaaaaaa............

ohh well .. oh well ..
what will i do there?
my trip will be start in Norway from 28th of June till 2nd of July, 2009
then i'll go to Sweden from 2nd till 28th of July, 2009
buutttt i really hopei can go to Copenhagen, Denmark after 23rd of July, 2009
aaaa damn excited but a bit afraid.. I know it's gonna be okay for everything ^^,

thanks guys for your support :))

Java Trip

hey hey heyy !!
soo here's the rute: Solo - Ponorogo - (Solo) - Jogja - Tegal

let's start from Solo..
woke up at 2.30am, prepare for everything, and gone at 4am
then loooonngg looonngg trip to the destination,
but we stopped in Semarang to eat lunch (3 menu, crazy!)
after that gone to Solo, yippie FINALLY hahaha.
we stayed in 'Lor In' which is soooooo COOL HOTEL !!
LOVE IT yoo.. big, nice, and so many bule stayed there :D
umm just for the info if the pool is where the 'OB TV' have a shoot for the opening film
ohh well back to the topic again
took a bath, took a rest, and out for dinner yeyy
keyy this was the stupid things happened hahahaha kinda funny
we used the GPS, but that's such a stupid GPS lols
with so many languages we tried and so many stupid words we've heard lols
at night we back to the hotel and have a rest ;)

the next day, swam with fams at the hotel and also breakfast
cool pool, LOVE it ~
went around solo to buy some souvenirs and foods also hehe
and we went to my 2nd mom's house a.k.a Ie'Tju ^^
badly we just stayed there for an hour cause they had to go
and my family had to go also to Ponorogo to meet some others families
arrived at the hotel, took a nap and took a bath also hihi
dinner is waiting in Madiun hahaha such a delicious Pecel there
back to the hotel and meets some others families as my aunties ;)
then what ?? hahahaha damn crazy aunties, we went out for another dinner hahaha
for closing of this day, we back again to the hotel and slept

now is talking bout the 3rd day..
Woke up in the morning although we were so late to go
went to errrrr mom's cousin house and meet some others *long* cousins
after that went to the graveyard for 'nyekar' to my grandiess
and what's next ?! EAT AGAIIINNNN hahahaha
many many foods we got before we back to Solo only to meet my 2nd mom again yey
took some pictures although I couldnt take a pict of my mom's daughter
hmm.. finally we went to Jogja and had dinner together with my auntiess
yummy but slowly but sure ! haha
ohh well we're back to our hotel at Saphir Hotel :)
sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep to end this day haha

anddd today..
the next day in Jogja late for swimming then just go to pick my aunt's family up
went out for lunch at the mushroom resto yippie, soo yummy en full !!
back to aunt's house and have some shopping wohooo i'm happy ^^
then back again to hotel, swam for a sec, annnddd do nothing just being ol like this
ohh anyway, have a stupid story bout my cousins haha but sorry its in Indonesian
td pagi sempet nunggu di rumah Ie'C en ktemu ma anaq2nya
yg gde c dah knal, tp yg 2 kecil2 itu masi umur 2 thn en 4/5 thn
nahh ini yg sulid knalin diri gw k mrk krn mrk masih asing ma qta
ptama2 ya cm diem2 aja, tp lama2 gatel jg, akhirna gw ajak maen perang2an
mreka gebuk2in gw en ktawa2 bareng haha akhirna bs nurut ma gw
for me who likes kids very much, yaa sangat amad snenk bs bqin anak kecil ktawa
lucu bgt pula muka mrk klo lagi ktawa ktiwi hihi
gonna miss u, Veve en Ian ;)
fighting is the alternative to make kids know you hahaha ~
now i'm ready to go to bed..
nights everybody !!

to be continued..

thanks ;)

first of all I wanna say THANKS SO MUCH to:
1. my LORD GOD
2. parents
3. Belle Meisje
4. teachers
5. friends

hmm sangat mudah emank bwad ngmg pgn ceped2 klr dari SMAK 5
itu yg kami alami ktika saat2 ulangan, tugas, en ujian dtg ke kita
tapi skarang, justru betapa susahnya bwad say goodbye to SMAK 5
byk bgt yg dah gw alami slama masa skola, tpatna pd masa2 SMA kita

dari kelas x2 ~
what can i say for this class?! I do really proud to be in this class :)
You all such the best for me.. kbahagiaan awal gw slm di SMA gw dpt di kls ini
kelas yg luar biasa, ga cm dr persahabatan tapi kekeluargaannya
kelas yg luar biasa krn punya banyak kenangan2 tak terlupakan
dari kenangan2 pahit sampe kenangan2 indah yg qta alami bareng
ga bisa dipungkiri jg klo smwa itu jg atas bantuan guru2 di skola, slaen Our Beloved GOD
kelas yg berada di lt.4 en diujung sendiri en punya jendela m'hadap k SMPK 4
kelas yg bisa di bilang SERU GILAKK !! hahaha..
thanks guys for everything ;)

lanjut kls xis3 ~
sbuah kelas di lt.2 pojok deket WC en deket dapur !! haha.
ptama masuk kelas ini, rasanya hampa, sepiii, garink, en gtaw lg dehh
awalna sedihh bgt mrasa pisah sama tmn2 dr x2 yg kbykan msk ipa,
tapi gw jg patut bersyukur gw ada di kelas ini
wpun qta ga bs nyatu banget banget, tapi gw byk belajar dr kalian
byk kenangan jg yg gw dapet dgn canda tawa en kbosanan tyap hari
duduk diantara pria2 itu dan slalu jd bahan contekan wkwk
1 hal yg gw bilang hebad adlh kita bisa ke Bandung wpun cm bbrp
pdhl qta bkn sbuah kelas yg kompak banget en bs pegi rame2
tapi ini sala 1 yg patut gw syukuri ada di kelas ini
thanks guys ;)

trakhir xiis1 ~
hmm.. ktika awal ngebaca nama anak2nya,, oke lahh wpun rda brutal haha
senenk bgt bisa masuk di kelas yg rame rusuh en tukang cari mslh
ditambah pula yg rata2 ips slalu palink rendah wkwk maap pak, buu
disini gw mnemukan tman2 baruuu, tman2 main menggilaaa, tman cabut mlm2,
tman makan di ropiittt, tman blajar baruu, tman haha hihi, en tmn utk dikerjain hahaha
kalian smwa berharga bwad gw..
dr wkt itu qta bikin klrga *super*, remember?! It's fun! ahaha
disini pula gw bljr jadi dokter cinta amatiran wkwk byk kisah cinta di kls gw
ga cm dari para lelaki, tapi jg para wanitanya sampe akhir kls 3 ini
seruu.. dpt pengalaman en crita2 ttg cintaa.. en apa ya?? snenk lah bs bantu tmn XD
byk jg ce2 berjabatan di kls qta, spt ktua osis en wakil mpk 2008 hihi
thanks guys bwad 1 thn trakhir gw di masa SMA ini ;)

special thanks to Belle Meisje ~
yahh sbuah persahabatan yg baru dibentuk wkt qta kls XI
berawal ga jelas tapi akhirnya qta bs sama2 jln, sharing, support, en slg mdoakan bsama
I absolutely PROUD of you all !!
2 little gurls yg slalu mau dgr ocehan gw..
2 little gurls yg mau bela2in dgrin gw klo lagi emosi..
2 little gurls yg slalu kasi advice luar biasa bwad gw..
en yg pasti kalian itu 2 little gurls yg udah ngubah kerohanian gw jd spti skrg ini..
kalian yg jadi inspirasi gw utk trus mau bertumbuh di dlm Tuhan
kalian jg yg jadi awal gw utk bs lebih lagi mengenal DIA
bkn skedar tau ttg DIA, tp kalian mbuat gw blajar byk hal utk hidup di dlm DIA
kalian bner2 sahabat yg *two thumbs up* bwad gw ;)
well wpun gw berbeda greja dgn kalian,
tp kalian jg supporter gw bwad gw bs bangun greja gw mjd lebi baik..
thanks thanks a lot Beqh en Kat !!
this friendship will never end, right ?! - LOVE YOU! -


en this is my last paragraph for my notes .
at last,, I want to say Congrats bwad smwa anak SMAK5 yg dah lulus en also thanks for our friendship for 3 years at SMAK5..
thanks bwad smwa yg udah jadi kenangan dlm hidup gw
kalian 1-1 jadi inspirasi gw bwad gw bs jadi lebih baik ^.^
hard to say goodbye but we shud go for the next level of our life ~
dunno wat to say lagi sangat amad, tapi 1 yg pasti..
'GOD has soo many good plans for us and GOD also will make the way for our future !!'

~ GOD BLESS YOU ~

. oh why . oh why .

hmm why is my question actually..
wat I feel is kinda a weirdo feeling
I feel different, I feel confused, and I feel weird
think of there's sumthing I dont know and I shud have known bout it
maybe this is not the right time to tell, ok then I'll wait
but the other side, hmm feel sooo different with before
dunno why dehh..
feel like we dont have a long chat again like before
yea we chatted together but we dont have a long chat like what i've told u above
we havent texted like before huff
weirdoo ~
why? whats wrong? please, let me know..
I'll keep this feeling actually while i'm waiting for the answer of my questions :(

tiring friday

wahh wahh hari jumat ini memang sangat melelahkan yaa..
soo what have i done for today ??

well today was a really exciting day for me, although i was sooo sleepy and tired after so many things to do on my 3rd precamp for my summer. Oh yeaa,, today was the english day !! Almost all of what we've done today in Mrs. Tetet's house were in English to practice our english also hehe. today we've learnt about many things.. first of all Mr. Agustar asked us about what CISV is, then a bit (much i think) info about the CISV things, umm what else ??

Ohh after that we made an activity for each group and there were only 2 groups haha cause of the minimum participants there. Umm.. My group was the 1st group. We made a little simulation between the handicap games mixing with the puzzle games :) It was such a fun game to see them who play in that game hahaha. Then we had lunch together, some sharing time with some other ex-participants and ex-staff (Australian guy) of Seminar Camp. Well it was fun cause we could understand what's gonna be happen there and many many possibilities what's gonna be happen in our camp, from the bad things till the good one haha. Thanks Josh for coming !!

It's time to practice our english with some sharing and questions from us hihi. and after that we had snacks and the 2nd activity !!! yeaa kinda funny and fast games haha. umm after all of that, we all had the R-07 (Rules of Seven in CISV) ~ damn boring and sleepy hehe sorry ~
After all tiring things we've done, finally we were in the evaluation section wkwk. At the end, we close the precamp with the preparation of Farewell Party.. YIPPIE !! We are DONE..

So,, that's today for me :)

2 hari sudah aku bersenang2..
2 hari sudah aku lalui dgn kbahagiaan..
2 hari juga aku sudah menghabiskan liburan sampe lelah..
tapi inilah hasilna, ktika aku ingin istirahat di rmh utk 1 hari saja ga bisa
yg ada aku bosan dan bete di rmh krn masalah kecil smalem..

aku cape..
aku bingung..
aku lelah..
aku harus gmana lagi Tuhan ??
aku terus terbawa dgn suasana hatiku sperti ini
tawa canda bgitu aja kluar ktika aku bersama tman2
tapi knapa slalu ada masalah di dlm kluargaku ?
knapa aku harus terus jadi pusat masalah di kluargaku ?
aku blom bisa nahan emosiku Tuhan..
aku blom bisa trima suatu keadaan dgn mudah..
apa lagi yg harus aku ubah ??
bantu ingetin aku donk bwad sgala hal yg harus diperbaiki

sedihh en capeee banget rasanya harus hadapin ini smua :(
aku blom bisa menyenangkan mreka..
aku cukup sabar dan cukup bingung aplg yg harus kulakukan
stiap kali aku bermasalah dgnnya, ga ada 1 jawaban pasti
cm ada 1 jawaban dr bokap, yaitu doain dia aja
bantu aku Tuhan.. bantu aku untuk bisa tegar hadepin ini semwa..
bantu aku untuk bisa tetap berdiri dan mnunjukkan smwa kbaikanMu..

aku pun slalu menangis stiap membahas masalah yg ga ada jawaban ini :'(

shopping friday

first of all i was too late to wake up this morning
it was because of i was late to go to sleep hahaha *3am*
but it's not a big probs to go to the mall as our plan
so i got hurry in take a bath and have a brunch
en this is time to goooo ...

at the mall, i was so confused where to go
then mom said let's go to orange, but we when to N.Y.L.A first
i found nothing so i decided to move to orange
yeaaa my crazy shopaholic life was ON !! hahaha
Here I found many things and bought many things xP
after long time in orange, we moved to Pull.en.Bear
ohhh the things are so expensive,
so we were back to orange again to buy some scarfs
umm.. then we tried to find a pair of shoes for me,
but we found nothing cause of my bad feet *oops*
and finally we had HEAVENLY BLUSHH !!!
went to shinsai - ate lunch - back home :)

so what did i get ??
- two tanktops
- one baju kodok
- one blazer for graduation
- two scarfs
- one skirt for graduation
- one dress from centro yesterday

and waiting list..
- SHOESS !!! (pretty bad and small feet huff)

sorry mom for all of these hahahaha but feel happy, thanks :)

free days of June

woo wooo it's been a week i've left my blog
en think if today is the right time to write again
hmm free days for me mean holidays, yippie !!
well lets start my last few days in the beginning of June :)

Monday, 1st of June 2009
school was de first place I went to before we went to the mall
we just have to take the invitation of our graduation that day
met some friends and planned for many farewells with them haha ~ 9b. x2. xiis1.
nyahh sounds confusing but this was exactly what I shud did
then Belle Meisje + Jessie went to my house just for change our clothes
and mall was my next destination hahaha
met other friends, had lunch, en did our singing time
sing along together with the kaputers were so much fun
pretty tiring but sooo fun, feels enjoy after we sang out for 3 hours xP
went home with Kat en had some laughs just bcoz of x2's probs wkwk
till finally Kat's mom picked her up from my house

Tuesday, 2nd of June 2009
wohoo this day was de day with my beloved family ~ x2
start from artha gadink to watch Terminator: Salvation
Beqh and Gby picked me up at school cause I have no transport that day :(
ok well we met up together there, bought the tickets, and yey time to watch
cool film with a little laugh at the beginning cause of Bayu
'good' question bay !! hahahaha
14.15 WIB met the others and lets goooo to Pluit :D
1st place to go was Emporium Mall,, for me it's a good mall
buuttt there was still nothing, just some foods were open there
ate Pizza Hut, took some pictures, then moved to Pluit Junction
walked across from the Emporium with some laughs en did some crazy things
took some photos at the Pluit XXI hihi
en finally we went to Pantai Mutiara for dinner
we ate at the Oceanic Cafe with a little surprise for Bayu at de end
so many laughs we had and so many things we talked
thanks for the time guys :D

Wednesday, 3rd of June 2009
school again, school again, huff just for give back the confirmation
picked odie up at school jg siey and met Gun suddenly haha
then we weeeenntt to pick Vina en Gby to Beqh's house together :)
Fun time with a tiring body for me, a bit sleepy at that time
watched HSM3 and had some chit.chat with 'em
time to go at 16.35pm, we all went to the mall hehe
I met some other gurls from xiis1 for our 1st time being 2gether
had dinner, give chance to Vonny to ride the Flying Fox hahaha, and karaokeee !!
sang all together again with some fun en some laughs

thanks for these days..
thanks for these happiness I've got..
thanks also for today that I can take some rest for my body..
what's next ??

Prom Night SMAK 5 * Le Memoire

What a wonderful day for me ~
after a long time we had been waiting for, akhirnya datang jugaa hahaha

dsini gw ga akan bahas detail dehh gmn sikon dsana
yg jelas promnight ini bner2 berkesan bwad gw..
seneng banget ruame yg dateng en mreka2 itu terlihat cantikk :)
keren juga akhirna para lelaki itu bisa rapihh pake jas hihihi
yeaa its kinda late to start the party, jem 8 baru mulai jadi mkn ya skitar jem 9an
dgn sgala rancangan acara yg dah dsusun, smwa menarikk
haru biru membuat gw sedihh bwad inget klo gw ga akan rame2 kya gtu lagi
apalagi pas peluk2an, wuaahhh rasana WOW senank en KANGEN banget
gw hampir nangis dsitu.. tp emank dsar gw, gw tahanlah tangisan itu hehe
oh well gw senenk banget bwad ada dia acara semeriah itu, ga nyangka banget
en buat gw, DISCOtime nya MUANTAPP hahahaha
rame banget yg ngedance di dance floor en dah gtu seruuu smwa pd mau bpartisipasi
menggila bsama mreka, lompat2 bareng, triak2 bareng, kringetan bareng jg, plus pegel bareng
aaaaaaa pengen DISCOtime lagi yuuuuqq hahaha

pulang dr prom itu skitar jem 1an lebi en lgsg mnuju ke Mc.D
smwa dah teler cape tapi ttp qta rame2 ke Mc.D sampe jem 3
minum milo, foto2, ktemuan ma anak2 prom mobil laenn hahaha
serunya masa SMA ga akan terulang 2x ;)
abis dr Mc.D langsung cao qta balik k hums masing except kat en beqh
they stayed in my house wihiiii ^o^

itulah prom gw :)
ga mau nulis panjang2,, bacanya jg repot hihi
lanjud ke blog brikutna dgn topik berbeda "D

ad ap dgn hidup gw ?

huahhh aku gtaw ad setan ap yg mendiami diri gw
gtaw knapa gw bs bebal kya gni en kekeh dgn sifat buruk gw
sjujurna gw gtaw kputusan gw untuk diam ini kputusan yg bnr ato ga
gw sendiri bnr2 manangisi diri gw sndiri yg terlampau batu !
mgkin kputusan gw utk kya gni ga sala, tp cara sikap gw yg sala
udah byk firtu yg gw telan en itu dah bnr2 nancep sama gw
tp tetep aja tuhh ga bs ilank rsanya bwad gw ga bsikap kya gni
kmana sehh hati gw ?? maw sampe kpn gw bgini ??

aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggghhh...... !!!!!!
i just can shout en pray everyday ~
aku gtaw apa rencana Tuhan sbnernya, sedih banget klo gw skrg kya gni
mjauhh dr klrga dgn cara menghindar tnpa ngmg 1 kata pun dgn mreka
ditanya jg jawabannya ketus en nyebelin, gataw diri emank gw !
scr otomatis itu semwa kluar dgn mudahnya dr mulut gw
mgkin klo gw jd mreka jg gw udah marah krn diperlakukan dgn gtu
gw bs ngmg ini smwa dr hati gw yg palink dlm,,
tpi apa kulitnya ?? gw blom sanggup bwad nunjukin ini smwa k mrk
gw ga bs lagi berkata2 buat diri gw sndiri, malu2in - bego !!
musti gimana doooonnkk ?????

help me GOD to be better again like before,,
i dont want to be like this.. it just means that i do lie for myself :(

pergumulan dlm diri

byk hal yg tak kupahami.. byk hal yg menghalangiku..
huaahhh bingung super bingung knapa smwa keinginan gw ktahan bgini
semua harapan positif gw ga bs nampak di kelakuan gw
gw slalu mnutupi itu semwa dan bole dibilang gw lari dr masalah itu
byk wktu yg harusnya bisa untuk diselesaikan, tapi gw ga pake itu dgn baik
gw lebih memilih bersenang2 dgn org lain drpd gw harus slesein masalah ini

de problem is stiap kali gw mau slesein masalah ini, yg ada cm emosi & kmarahan
cape rsanya marah2. cape rasanya harus dgr triakan en ocehan mreka.
mrk ga ngerti posisi gw krn gw yg terlalu diam krn menghindar dr kata emosi itu
tp ini kputusan gw bwad diem..
ktika gw mulai enjoy dan mau berusaha diem dlm slesein masalah,
tiba2 muncul pertanyaan dr mrk knp gw skrg diem blablabla en minta pjelasan k gw
penjelasan gw cm 1 krn pendapat gw ga di dgr, tp gw blom bisa bahas lebih detail lagi
ga sanggup bner2 rasanya harus lewatin masa2 ini..
berad en mrasa bodoh plus mrasa bersala trus muncul dlm hati gw
tyap kali gw teringat masalah ini, rasanya pgn nangis nangis dan nangis
slalu bertanya2 knapa gw ga brani bwad ngmg jujur dan trima emosi yg ada ??!
BINGUNG bneran sampe skarang huxx..

help me GOD ~

boring days vs 'bakso' face

ohmigot banget nie awal liburan gw huxx
baru kelar UAS, gw memutuskan utk langsung oprasi gigi
hmm knp gw pgn ceped2 langsung oprasi,
ya krn gw ga mau nunggu lama2 bwad nahan ini gigi di mulut gw
trus jg krn gw mau sbebas2na pas promnite nanti hehe
akhirna hr kamis itu pun gw oprasi dgn tnpa deg2an en pd2 aj
stenga jem buka mulut, lebi dr 4 jem gw mati rasa di mulut sblh kiri
mkn bubur koq ga ad rasa ye ? wekeke

berhubung ga punya janji jadi gw bertahan di rumah sampe bosan
sampe mlm kerjaan gw cm ol, ntah dr hp ato pun kompie hoo
sempet ktiduran bntar juga sihh hehe tpi ya bgitulah
pipi tdinya byasa aj sihh ga knp2 cm agak sakit aja huehue
sampe mlm ol, foto2 gaje en ol sampe umm stenga 3 pagi
ga ad kerjaan sihh :p
lalu dimulai lah hr ini,, bangun dgn muka bakso
tdur sakit en susa madep kiri, wahh kacau banget dahh hyahaha
nothing to do en just eat some porridge with an egg
sampe mlm cm di rumah, mau ngapaen yoo ??
maunya sihh tdi nge-gym, tp tyt ga bs lari krna pipi bgkak bneran huff

duhh BOSAN banget kawann !!! pgn kluar rumahh huff :(

masa kecil

masa kecil gw sbenernya byasa2 aja wpun wkt 2 SD dulu ada skandal yg bqin gw ga mau skool
seiring waktu bjalan,, gw makin dewasa n tau prubahan2 yg ada n mulai pake perasaan
dalam arti smwa bisa gw rasain itu nyakitin hati ato ga, ato b qin hati senenk dll
yaps itulah hidup..

yg mau gw bahas kali ini terlebih ke arah 'masa kecil yg berpengaruh pd masa mnuju kedewasaan'
ap maksud gw nulis ini sehh ?? mgkin mreka yg baca akan nanya2 en blg ga penting
tpi inilah kenyataannya,, ap yg kita dpt di masa kecil sgt bpengaruh sama msa depan
pengalaman hidup gw dlm 18 tahun ini banyak dan skrg gw mrasa sesuatu brubah dr diri gw
brubah ktika gw dah 18 tahun dgn perubahan yg gw bilang ke arah yg kurang baik
yapp wktu itu gw sempet berjalan dgn baik, aman tentram damai sama hidup gw
tapi blakangan ini gw boleh akui gw lagi kacau en mulai jadi pendendam
prinsip yg gw tau ini sangat salah tp sulid diubah:
gw masih kesel klo 1 masalah itu blom kelar, tp gw pun akan brusaha kelarin saat itu juga
mungkin konteksnya baik utk slesein suatu masalah, tp kenyataannya
smwa dislesein tapi pake urat triak2an :'(

oke itu baru 1 hal..
prubahan yg yang lainnya, dlu gw adalah seorang anak yg kepo-nya luar byasa
trus gw juga orgna suangat emberr ga ktulungan..
sampe suatu saat gw diomelin karna gw buka inbox cc or nyok gw en ditriakin 'ga usah buka2!'
*maklum dl blom ada kata kepo haha*
gw mulai deh brubah dqit2 bwad nahan ga kepo sekepo2nya dan brubahlah gw jd ga kepo
utk hal k2 yg bocor en uember itu, gw brubah ktika ada 1 org tmn gw yg mau percaya crita k gw
pdhl dy tau gw sangat ember, tapi dy mau brani crita or curhat k gw
dan dr situ gw mulai perbaiki sifat2 gw yg uember en buocorr itu..
tapi apa hal negatifnya ?? yapp gw ga kepo en ember,, tp krna ktambahan kejadian2 itu
gw skrg suka sebel kalo ada org yg kepona stenga mampus, even klrga gw ndiri jg gw kesel
pdhl tujuanna nanya bkn kepo, tp gw anggepnya itu kepo huff *gtaw knp*
klo yg ember2an,, gw skarang malah banyak diem krna kejadian yg itu
dan kjadian saat gw mau ngeluarin pendapat ttg prasaan gw tpi ga di dgrin
akhirna gw bqin kputusan untuk memilih diam dibandink gw sakit hati
konteksna adalah sama kluarga..

dari situ berbuahlah gw jadi sensi dan pendendam karna masalah akhirnya ga kelar
masalah gw simpen dalem2 di hati gw tapi kenyataannya gw blom bs trima dgn kenyataan
gw pengen ngebahas lagi tpi ga akan ditanggepin or bahkan dibentak lagi
dan dibilang ga usah ungkit2 masa lalu, pdhl itu lah awal gw bs berkonflik dlm diri kya gni
tpi mreka ga pernah mau ngerti kalo gw pgn ngelurusin en nyatuin pendapat aja
bingunk dehh musti gimana..
skarang pun gw udah ngecap *dia* dgn hal2 buruk spti ga mau dgrin pendapat org,
diajak ngmg langsung marah, ga bs diajak ngmg baik2, dll
tapi *dia* pun akhirnya ngecap gw jg sbg anak yg ga pernah bs dimengerti, dikasi ini sala-itu sala
yahh gw musti gmana ?! ngmg sakid hati, diem salah..
mau nyelesaiin masalah tpi pendapat gw ga pernah didenger ya sama aj boonk

jadi inti dr posting ini :
pengalaman gw yg kemungkinan membuat gw brubah jadi anehh kya gni en ga bs berdamai dgn hati dan diri gw sndiri,, pengalaman masa kecil yg akhirnya menjadi kburukan spti ini..

sorry GOD,, icha blom bs berdamai en jaga emosi kya dlu lagi..
icha mrasa amad bodoh dgn klakuan ini, tapi ini bner2 di luar kontrol icha..
berkali2 kalo lagi emosi icha nangis en brusaha bwad bs nahan emosi ini trus peka sama suara Tuhan, tapi icha bner2 blom sanggup..
bahkan yg icha rasain, icha makin kalut dan smakin panas udah kya kerasukan setan..
icha mrasa ini bukan icha dan icha lagi jauhh banget sama Tuhan..
please GOD help me and bring me back to YOU !! :'(
* crying while i'm writting these last sentences *

tuing tuing

~ dunno wat to write for the title hahaha ~

hmm.. wat to write nie ??
sbenernya lagi bosen aj sehh jadi memutuskan bwad nulis ini blog hihihi
ok let's start talking bout school first :)

school ? apa yg bs gw harapkan lagi dengan skola skarang ?!
no more lesson at the class,, no more teacher who wants to teach
not bcause of they are lazy but bcoz of they dont have any other lesson to teach
hahaha garink banget deh klo di skola skarang2 ini..
semwa tryout en UN udah kita lewatin dgn sukses,
dari yg blajar sampe yg males2an, en akhirnya ga blajar ma skali haha
gokil banget ya kelas 3, ga sabar dtunggu2, udah dtg tp bgitu aja cepat berlalu
itulah waktu yg kita punya, ditunggu pasti akan lamaaa banget
tpi klo dah dijalani dgn tenank malah ceped banget berlalu
besok adlh hari trakhir qta berbaju seragam dan duduk di kelas
main2 ato blajar, tapi yg pasti itu hari trakhir qta di skola untuk jdwal KBM
mgg depan masi skola sehh 3 hari, tpi itu cm bwad UAS..
hmm blajar ga yaaa ?? wekeke udah mulai malas blajar en terasa libur
wat else bout school ?!

ohh !! skolaa.. kt org skola itu masa2 palink menyenangkan aplg sma
ga akan pernah terlupakan en rasanya pengen kmbali k masa itu
yeaa benar adanya klo sma itu seru dgn wawasan yg dah terbuka
bisa melihat gimana dunia kita sbenernya dan mrasa bahagia jg tnpa ada beban
beban yaa palink cm ulangan, krna gw sndiri blum tau seberat ap masa2 kul itu
beraaattt banget rasana bntar lagi gw bakal ninggalin smak 5 huahh
disuru masuk ya males, ditinggalin ya berat.. apa cb maunya ?! hahaha
dunno jg sehh, tp yg jelas 1 yg gw rindu, masa2 kbahagian di sma
en tmn2 gw smwa di sma, dr yg gw sebelin sampe yg palink dqet ma gw
mreka yg bs bqin gw tertawa lebar dgn lelucon2 bodohnya haha
yeaa bntr lagi prom en perpisahan2, huaaa sedihh :(
oke lahh hidup harus dijalani, ga sabar juga bwad prom wakakak

next is about me as a clumsy little gurl ..
ARRGGHH !! wanna bite myself cause of my stupidity hmpf
once again i lost my 'priceless' thing huxx gudbye my necklace :'(
i lost it yesterday when me and friends when to the saloon i think
sooo clumsy that i didnt pay attention to my necklace which i've put it in my bag
mungkin pas gw ambil hp ato barang dr tas, dy ktarik en jatoh
huahh sebel banget itu bs ilank, pdhl gw suka banget ><
soorry dah ngilangin bwad yg ketiga x nya wpun yg 2 sblomna bkn kalung
tpi 2-2na sejenis en they are 'priceless' also huff
relakan dehh relakan..
takk kusangka dan tak kuduga barang itu bs lenyap bgitu saja *tuink2*

ini aja deh yg jadi penghiburan gw dlm nulis blog huehue bosaaann tenan,
badan cape pula weleh2. ngapaen ya kawan2 ??

past - now - today

" what about now.. ??
what about today.. ?? "
just like what Chris Daughtry said in his song

me now is different with before..
en me today is also different with before..
i'm not a kid anymore and i can think more perfectly for all the best
i know i'm still short with my chubby cheek plus babyface
but this is me as an 18 y.o gurl :)

feel so different with me for now or today
first, gmpank tersinggunk dgn ucapan en perbuatan org lain
second, gmpank skali kpancing emosi wpun mulai ditahan ga lgsg marah
tp jdinya gw kesel di dlm sehh en jd gondok ndiri dgn mslh itu akhirnya
third, i'm too sensitive cause of many things
forth, tingkat ego yg mulai berada di tingkat puncak
nahh.. hal2 di atas itu lah yg menyebabkan gw skarang lebih diem
dalam arti gw lebih tertutup dengan tman2 en terutama keluarga
gw jadi ga bisa lagi terbuka seperti dlu dgn semwa kbawelan gw
gw ga bisa lagi nyap2 en ceplas ceplos kya dlu
gw ga bisa lagi ngertiin posisi orang lain yg lagi kesulitan
dan ditambah ego gw yg udah sampe k tingkat puncak itu yg mrusak smwanya

itulah gw.. Icha yg baru 18thn, bermuka chubby en childish also..
mrasa semwa ini hal2 negatif yg gw punya skarang dan lagi smakin mjadi
sjujurna gw bgng musti gimana krn gw dah terlanjur enjoy dgn smwanya
wpun byk kali gw disakiti dan masalah jd terpendem di dlm hati
sakit hati rasanya kalo lagi mendem masalah itu
keputusan yg ga akan pernah menyelesaikan mslh, mundur drpd brantem
itu kputusan yg gw ambil blakang2an ini dan ya akhirna ga ad jwbn pas sbg penyelesaianna
sorri for them who stay around me :(
gw jg mrasa sedih dgn diri gw yg sering membungkam dan mrahasiakan byk hal
gw jg mrasa sedih dgn diri gw yg terlalu menang di ego serta emosinya
i guess i feel diff with myself since 'that' time..

still praying for all the best in my life ~
wish i can back to my real condition like in the past before *.*

weirdoo.

ohh sucks cause it's such a weirdoo for me .!!
first of all, i still can't accept the reason why i can't stay at my old.house
can u imagine if the other people can stay there but me who was in that house,
can't stay again in that house for my farewell with bestfriends ?!
the reasons is they were afraid if we're gonna make him more stressful
yea he's stress but it doesn't mean i can't stay there, kan ??

SUCH A WEIRDOO .!!
smakin lama dunia makin anehh aje en ga masuk akal,, ckup dgn mengelus dada dehh ~

kemandirian

dari mana manusia itu menilai kemandirian seseorang ??
hati ? sikap ? iman ? ato kerohaniannya ?
memang banyak arti dari kemandirian itu sendiri
banyak sisi ato banyak pendapat tentang kemandirian seseorang
dan benar adanya kalo kmandirian orang ga cuma dinilai dari sikap hidup,,
tapi juga dinilai dari sisi kerohanian orang tersebut

untuk gw pribadi emank masi banyak kekurangan dalam hal kemandirian
gw blom bisa menyebut diri gw mandiri untuk sepenuhnya
masih banyak hal yg gw lupakan dan malas untuk dilakukan
karena apa ?! karena hal2 ga penting yg lainnya dan itu yg malah gw kerjain
dlm bidang rohani,,
gw belum mengakui gw dah mandiri dalam bidang rohani
gw masi perlu orang lain bwad bawa diri gw ke jalan yang benar
dan dilengkapi dengan doa pribadi gw :)
dlm bidang sikap,,
no i'm not !! hahaha. gw masi terlalu childish untuk sikap gw ndiri hehe

di lain sisi, gw blakangan ini spertinya lagi di uji jiwa kemandirian gw
mxdna itu, beberapa mgg blakangan ini, gw lagi sering pegi sendirian
dalam arti naek angkot ato dijemput temen dan dianter temen utk balik
dan dalam sikon itu pula gw lagi sering jalan2 trus keluar
gw lagi diperhadapkan dengan sesuatu yg membutuhkan kemandirian gw
gw yang orangnya plin-plan ini bner2 diajar melalui kenyataan hidup
untuk bisa mengambil keputusan secara cepad dan tepat
itu yg lagi gw alami skarang, entah di greja, skola, ato pun kehidupan pribadi gw
gw sangad bersyukur,, di tengah masalah hidup gw,
di tengah gw yg slalu bersungut2 ini, gw masi dikasi pengertian dan makna dr smwa ini
gw bisa ngeliat hal positif apa yg bs gw dapetin dari pengalaman hidup gw

gw dari kecil slalu di anter jemput sama nyokap or etlis supir gw klo pegi2
tapi skarang, gw diperhadapkan dgn sikon ga ad yg anter jemput lagi
dan gw skarang lebi sering mengambil keputusan untuk naek angkot
gw jujur aja blajar menjadi seseorang yg bisa mandiri untuk pulang en pergi
bukan suatu hal yg gampank bwad gw saat ptama kali ngalamin hal ini
bukan suatu hal yg bs langsung gw trima jg saat ptama gw ada di sikon ini
tapi inilah gw,, gw yg bs mandiri untuk pulang pergi tnpa harus bergantunk dgn org lain :)

thanks for YOUR Mercy ~
. *love* .

My Jesus, My Saviour

dunno what to start as usual..

hmm ngmg in mslh gw yg kmaren2,, gw emank rsana bodoh banget
bodoh termakan emosi sampe2 masalah itu ndiri bqin gw stress en down
apa penyebabnya gw emank ga sadar waktu itu
gw mrasa gw sndiri, gw mrasa ga ad yg mau dgrin gw bner2 ttg mslh gw
ya gw udah doa, tapi kalo diinget2 itu ga spenuh hati
bisa dibilang cm sbagai kebyasaan gw aja slalu bgitu
hati gw rasanya menangisss truss,, dan ketika mlm itu..
ad 1 hal yg bner2 bqin gw tenank en damai dlm tangisan, serta doa gw
gw mrasa betul2 Tuhan lagi meluk gw dan bilang "Tenank, Ini Aku ada bersamamu.."
Wuaahh malam itu gw bner2 rasanya tenaannk banget lagi dipelukk gitu hihi
tpi itu mgkin cm sesaat ktenangan hati gw wpun gw brusaha lepas dr masalah

Baru gw sadari dgn teguran keras buat gw pribadi melalui 2 kotbah yg intinya sama
dmn salah 1 kotbah itu sndiri gw bner2 mrasa nyelekit alias 'nancep'
Pdt yg gw kagumi itu bner2 secara tegas ngmg blak2an ap yg seharusnya qta lakuin
Tema kotbah hari Minggu kmaren adlh 'Menaruh Pengharapan Kepada Kristus yg Bangkit'
udah bisa diprediksi kah apa inti dari kotbah hari itu ??
pd kbaktian pagi Minggu kmaren, kami VG Remaja bertugas sbg PNJ dan ngisi kbaktian
kami emank cape banget karna kebagian tugas utk kbaktian pagi
saat2 ga konsen itu smpet ada dlm diri gw, aplg saat kotbah haha *ampuunn*
tapi di 1 titik dari kotbah itu, pdt gw mulai crita ttg kisah hidupnya
kisah dmn dy bercerita kalo dy m'gantungkan hidupna sama org lain
lalu apa ?? akhirnya ya emank cuma 1 jwbnnya, dikecewakan !

gw tiba2 aja tersadar dr ktidakkonsenan en scara otomatis dgrin kotbah itu langsung
wuahh nancep !! ini emank yg gw baru rasain bbrp hari sblomnya
masalah yg membuat gw bergantunk pd orang lain untuk suatu keputusan
secara sadar ato ga ya emank gw bergantunk sama org lain saat itu
shingga gw drop en jatuh dgn emosi gw yg mningkat hmpf
Pdt gw pun jg ngmg dlm kotbahnya kalo kita cm bs berpengharapan sama Tuhan kita
kenapa ?? karena DIA yg udah pasti setia sama kita..
entah siapa pun itu sesama kita, dari kluarga - sahabat - ato teman skalipun
mreka yg udah bisa dibilang sangat amad dipercaya itu,,
suatu saat pasti akan mengecewakan kita ~

I'm Sorry GOD !! but i also wanna say Thank You for your reminder..

di kotbah,, i found the best quote for me or maybe for us :
" Untuk kita yg mau percaya dan berpengharapan dengan sesama kita, bersiaplah untuk kita dikecewakan !! "

feel diff.

akhir2 ini emank ga menyenangkan bwad gw huff
akhir2 ini jg gw mrasa anehh dan bs dibilang ksepian
di tiap mslh yg gw hadapin,, gw bgng mau crita k sapa
mreka yg byasa gw curhatin skrg terlihat lebi cuek dgn mslh2 gw
gw bgng sjujurnya knapa, musti gmn, en crita k sapa lagi
yaa bbrp emank ada yg gw critain k org lain dan itu didgr sama mrk
tp ini, dmn mrk ?!
apa gw perlu mencari org2 lain yg lebi bs dgr curhatan gw ?
dan mgkin mrk lebi enjoy dgn org lain dibanding gw, who knows ?!

i'm not a type of an introvert person like (both of) you.
yeaa mgkin gw harusnya berdoa en crita sama Dia soal mslh2 gw
gw udah berdoa,, tp apa salahnya klo gw butuh org yg bs gw curhatin
apa salahnya jg gw butuh org yg bs ingetin gw klo emank gw sala
ga smwa yg gw lakuin bwad ngeberesin mslh gw itu bner
gw butuh pendengar dan gw butuh saran kritik
gw cm manusia kecil yg ga ada apa2nya en blom bs ngontrol diri gw sndiri
apa ini arti dr sahabat ?! i'm not up2date actually..
yg gw liat dr persahabatan org lain, gw mrasa kita amad beda & anehh
gw crita k org laen pun, mrk jg mrasa anehh dgn kita
hebad banget ye hidup gw,, ga ad yg bs prediksi hidup slaen Tuhan

sorry for this,, but this is exactly what i feel for these few months..
ini uda bs gw ktakan sukses utk mbuat gw cukup bingung musti ngapaen
en mbuat gw & hati gw menangis..

life is a mistery.

hidup adalah sebuah misteri
ga bisa dipungkiri lagi karna kita gtaw akan masa depan kita
kita juga gtaw masalah apa aja yg bakal kita dapetin selama kita hidup
cuma 1 nama yg tahu akan semua itu, TUHAN as our LORD :)

ini yg lagi gw jalanin blakangan ini .
gtaw masalah ini dimulai dari kapan, tp yg jelas gw Bingung !!
masalah super rumid yg ga bs gw ceritain disini & ckup bqin emosi
apa pun yg gw lakuin itu serba salah karna gw ga bisa ngapa2in
gw gtaw apa yg gw lakuin pun bner ato ga, tp iu yggw rasain sesungguhnya
gw mencoba menghindar dari masalah ini, gw ga bisa
( yaa gw tau ga seharusnya gw menghindar >< )
gw mencoba bwad sabar juga ini udah diluar batas ksabaran gw kyanya
gw mencoba untuk ngadepin ini semwa, gw ga bisa apa2
mreka berharap apa sih sbenernya dari gw ?? bantuan ?? bantuan kya gmanaaa ???
ga ada yg bs gw pikir kyanya slaen doa, tp doa ga bs terlaksana klo orgna ga mau ngelakuin
trus apa yg kalian mau sih dr gww ????
aaaarrrghh BINGUNG !!!!!!!!

ujung2nya bqin gw marah2 ndiri dan menangis just like now :'(
Help Me out of these problems, GOD !!!!

Summer Ohh Summer ..

Ohh Summerr !!!!
bner2 ga sabar bwad summer mdatang dgn sgala rencana yg adaaa hahaha

1st of all,, alesannya itu karna gw pgn banget en soooo excited bwad Camp in Stockholm
meet some new friends with different cultures and habits, also attitudes hoho
ga pernah kbayang aja di pikiran gw buat perjalanan jauuhhh ke Europe sendiri
tnpa ada yg nemenin gw en gw bakal ktemu tmn2 gw di luar negri yg lain bhs ama gw
ga ada pula transelator kalo gw bingung, apalagi nyasarr haha gaswad !! amid2 dehh..
huwaahh jujur lah ampe skarang masi takud bwad pegi ndiri wpun dtambah excited jg
pengalaman baru yg gw bakal gw lupain, traveling alone to Europe :)
ditambah lagi skarang dah mulai knal ma org2 dr berbagai negara itu en ngobrol via fb or msn
seruu sihh kalo di liat dari chat-nya :P
bbrp dr mreka jg pernah jadi tmn2nya tmn gw dr Indo hueehh this is how small is our world ^.^
can't wait for this future camp,, WoHooo !!!

2nd,, gw jg bakal ktemu my lovely adikk yg lg studi di Spore hoooo
akhirnya kaw pulank jg adik wpun cm sminggu hulala tp sayang ga bday dsini huhu
anw. gw jg ga sabarr banget bwad liburan ke Jawa bareng adikk sblom gw cao k Sweden
ayoo adikk cepatlah pulaaannkk. kami rindu disinii !! hahahaha.
ei,, bw flute-nya jg yoo mau nyoba isenk2 hihihi ;)

next,, aplg lagi yaaa ?!?!
umm.. sbelom gw bs mnikmati smwa kgembiraan itu,, gw harus mlewati berbagai UJIAN2
bwad klulusan hoooo smangadh2 !!
mgg ini lagi UN ~ leganya tggal 2 plajaran lagi en udah 4 plajaran kelarr hahaha
bye soss !! bye math !! apa perlu bhs gw 'bye'-in jg ?? :P
UAS masih mnunggu di depan mata bulan Mei hihi plus byk aktivitas2 laennya lagiiiii
dr urusan greja bwad playanan ini itu sampe urusan CISV yg gw butuh urus ini itu sblom pegi
syalalala mari bergembira en blajar bagi waktu byar smwa ga kteterann !! hoo.

ohh !! I HATE Farewell !! huxx.
28 Mei 2009 bakal jadi sala 1 hr bersejarah di hidup gw, yaitu PromNite with skewl
acara akhir taon masa skolah stelah gw jadi murid Penabur KGP slm 15 tahunn *betah banget*
acara yg gw tunggu2 tp jg ga gw pengenin ..
di 1 sisi gw pgn cped2 libur summer panjang,, tp di lain sisi gw jg ga pgn cped2 prom
cus its gonna be very hard for me to say goodbye to all of u guys :(
hoaahh i'm gonna find my next farewell on the end of July i guess for my Seminar Camp ><
well its life,, ad saatnya bwad berjumpa en ada saatnya untuk berpisah..
tp itulah kenyataan hidup yg emank harus kita jalani ~
* haiahh bahasa gw.. *

akhir kata,, SMANGADH UAN !! SMANGADH LIBUR !! SMANGADH SUMMER !! hahahaha.

happiness vs sadness

oh well.. oh well..
hr ini jumat yg menyenangkan skaligus menyedihkan bwad gw. banyak yg terjadi dlm 1 hari ini, berawal dr blajar bareng sambil bcanda2 yg seruu trus qta makan pizza dgn pnuh banyolan hahaha maav lohh mba Fitri hihi gokill.! blajar ekop yg cukup mayan blajarnya bahas soal2 gituh dgn sang juru kunci ekonomi alias Rabecca Theresia hahaha *ampoonn*
hari ini pun gtaw knapa gw mrasa enjoy bersama kk gw hehe bs ngobs en ajak dy ntn besok :)
thanks GOD gw akhirnya bs baikan lagi en mrasa nyaman bwad ngmg ma dy. sejak kjadian itu gw emank agak mrasa renggang, tp gtaw knp gw bs kya gni hehe.

tp di lain sisi, gw dapet kabar buruk yg bqin gw ckup mrasa sedihh :(
nyokie tpun en ngmg k gw ttg sikon iik gw yg gw blg ckup menyedihkan huxx. she was my 2nd mom when i was a kid.. but sorry i can't tell wat's wrong with her huhu
de only thing i can do just help her by praying for her and fams :)

3 hr luntang lantung tnpa ortu hahaha ga ad transpud en nebeng2 hihi seruuuu !!
yawes ahh,, kali ini nulis blog dqit aje ~ gataw mo nulis aplg .
anw always pray for my UN next week,, smangadh kawann !!!!!

tiring days for me

dah baca kan blog gw sblomnya ttg hr sabtu en mgg gw yg amad melelahkan itu ??
nahh skarang giliran gw crita ttg snen slasa rebo gw hahahaha
snen adlh hr mbosankan di pagi hari dan sangat menyenangkan di mlm hari hihi
pagi cm skola yg banyak jem kosongnya itu, nganggur en tidur ga jelas
cm berharap ada guru yg masih mau ngajar di kelas qta
tapi akhirnya kputusan gw bwad nyokie suru jmput gw di skola en gw bs plg lebi awal
ga lama stelah gw pulang, Na en Yuri dtg bwad makeup en persiapan ini itu
alhasil smwa kelar tapi brangkat ke studio TM itu ngaret ret ret bangetss
dgn bgitu,, qta mdapat macet en br kelar foto2 itu jem 11 mlm lahh
jem 12 sampe rmh en tidur jem stenga 1,, amad gila sehh bdn gw mau rontok rasanya
tapiii puas banget gw dgn smwa hasil2nya.. BAGUS boooo hahahaha lucu mamenn !!

yakk inilah hari slasa gw yg ga bs bangun pagi en akhirnya bolos hahaha
bangun jem 10.20am, makan en mandi,, truss kontek2 en tacu bwad nonton hihi
ehh taq sengaja ktemu guru german en guru pranciss hoo thanks lohh ga dikasi tau xP
abis dr mol,, gw pijet dehh haha ajibb dehh dgn bdn mo rontok trus pijed hoo
wpun kaki gw super duper sakid yg kseleo ini blom smbu huahhh
yapp itu hari slasa gw,, mari lanjut ke hari rebo gw tpatnya hari ini yg sucks bwad gw
cuapeee tp senank hahahaa krn gw ga masuk 7 jam plajaran dr 9 jem plajaran
hebad bukan ??? itu smwa krn gw harus bkerja keras demi foto yerbuk
pnuh tantangan.. penuh kerja keras.. plus dihukum lari en dijemur di lapangan krn slasa ga msk
nahh hasilnya ya skarang ini,, kaki gw bnr2 sakit lagi kiri kanan yg bekas bengkak itu
engselna ga bner ga ngerti knapa, bunyi klo gw lagi jalan huff

smwa kerja keras gw lakuin,, tp ad hal yg bqin hati gw sedihh..
kehidupan gw lagi ngaco,, sate lagi molorr en byk mslh dlm diri gw pribadi
gw mau tetep nyoba bwad bs balikin smwaaa,, smangadh icha !!
Pcaya akan Kuasa Tangan Tuhan en Rencana IndahNya di depan nanti :)

kerja keras

huahh 2 hari dihadapkan pada kerja keras yg sangad amad mlelahkan
tp thanks GOD bwad kbahagiaan ini dlm hati klo masi dikasi ksempatan bwad ikut lgsg
hari jumat bnr2 mlelahkan bwad gw, mgkin cm 4 kegiatan yg gw lakuin tp itu semwa dlm wkt
lama..
ptama emank cm kbaktian 1 jem di greja untuk kbaktian Sabtu Sunyi pk 07.00am
trus plg jem stenga 8 sampe jem 10an, lalu jem 10 ke greja bwad rapat pzqut
lanjut lagi jem 12.30pm ke mol bwad cari bahan2 yerbuk en itu ampe jem 4
jem 4 k greja bwad VG en dilanjutin latian ansamble bersama jem 7.30pm
huahh emank ga brasa cape sihh wkt jalanin itu smwa krn dijalanin dgn haha hihi bareng
tpiiii.. wkt dah mdarat d hums en mandi,, huahahahaha bdn mo rontok chui !!!
yahh itu lah resiko wekeke

lanjuttt...
hr sbtu itu tdur jem stenga 12 en harus kudu bangun jem 3 krna jem 4 harus di greja bwad latian
padus kantata paskah mau ngisi di kbaktian jem 5 pagi hihi ajibb sukses !!
kbaktian lumayan lama krna ada baptis en perjamuan kudus hoo gela 2 stenga jem hihi
trus pulang dari jem 8an en tidurrrr jem 9 sampe jem 1..
gila udah kya pingsan saking capenya hahaha en jem 2 ini musti cao lagi k greja bwad latian lagi
kantata paskah mau pelayanan lagi di kbaktian prayaan paska jem 5 sore, waw !
tp maaf spertinya akan telat huhu blom kelar mkn soalnya xP
ya wess,, mau mlanjutkan tugas dlu dah :)

HAPPY EASTER smwaa !!

mix en match (?!)

Malam Hening en Jumat Agung udah gw lewati 22na..

Malam Hening bs di blg hati gw bnr2 brada dsana,, saat kbaktian gw bnr2 mcoba menghayati situasi gw sperti bnr2 sedang brada dlm perjamuan mlm trakhir dmn Yesus membasuh kaki para muridna en mkn daging, roti tak beragi, en sayur pahit. Pada kbaktian ini pula ada simulasi kecil ttg pengolesan darah pada tiang2 rmh dan simulasi kecil peristiwa pembasuhan kaki oleh Yesus kepada murid2nya. Awalna dimulai dr Pdt dan penatua, lalu dilanjutkan dgn jemaat scara bergantian. Ini pengalaman baru bwad gw dan gw snank mlakukanna,, dmn gw sbagai pelayan Tuhan jg harus mau melayani orang lain. Kebaktian ini emank singkat sih,, tp bwad gw, gw bnr2 mnikmatinya wpun ada sdiqit ksalahan. Makna dr kbaktian ini bnr2 ngena bwad gw dmn 'Pembasuhan Kaki Melambangkan Kasih dan Kebersamaan'.. Senenk banget dgn situasi kbaktian ini dmn gw bs brusaha konsen :) tp sayang,, di kbaktian ini gw duduk d sblh nci gw en tmn sblhna ad tmn nci gw yg laen. Sedih rasanya dgr mreka ngobrol trus dan brisik bwad gw, aplg saat simulasi pembasuhan kaki itu. Sorry to say that.. tp kmaren gw ttp mcoba bwad fokus en masuk dlm simulasi saat situasi perjamuan mlm trakhir bersama Yesus :)

Jumat Agung hari ini diadakan kebaktian pk 14.00 WIB
Kami sbagai VG Voice of Worship (VOW) juga diberi ksempatan utk bs mlayani di kbaktian kali ini. Ga cuma memberi pujian 1 lagu doank, tp kami jg dikasi ksempatan utk bs jadi PNJ (Pemandu Nyanyian Jemaat). Kesempatan ini bnr2 gw syukuri karna anak2 jg bs berikan yg terbaik. Waktu yg singkat utk latihan bnr2 jadi berkat buat kami karna wpun bgitu, kita ttp bs kasi yg terbaik. Persembahan pujian kami bnr2 pas banget utk moment Jumat Agung & bwad gw, aransementna bagus ditamba lagi dgn bakat dari anggota VG kita. Gw bs bilang kalo VG kita bnr2 jadi berkat buat org lain karna jujur aja gw mau bersyukur sama Tuhan bwad klompok VG ini :) Mreka bilang persembahan pujian kita tadi bagus en lagunya jg pas utk anak remaja hihi. Utk PNJ-nya jg mau bilang thanks sama Tnt Meike bwad latihan en bantuan suara dlm kami nyanyi tadi. Senenk banget deh dgn pujian2 ini semwa, tp 1 hal yg gw harus inget kalo semwa pujian itu datang karna kita yg udah diberi kmampuan oleh Tuhan. So,, bkn cm pujian itu yg harus kita blg trima kasih, tp juga Thanks to our Holy GOD !! Well for today,, gw jg bnr2 bs konsen utk masuk dlm kisah perjalanan Yesus dari awal Dia ditangkep, trus dihadapkan pada Pilatus, sampe Ia akhirnya disalibkan dan dikuburkan. Perjalanan panjang Yesus untuk menebus semwa dosa kita dan membayar mahal itu semua di kayu salib dgn darah dan tubuh-Nya. That's de point.. Thanks Jesus once again for this precious moment :)

Besok jg masih ada kbaktian Sabtu Sunyi en hari Mgg juga masih dikasi ksempatan utk mlayani di 2 kbaktian, kbaktian Subuh (PK, Baptis, en Sidi) & Perayaan Paskah sore..

now it's de time for extra info hahaha.
Lirik Lagu VOW utk Jumat Agung tdi..

Kasih Yesus Besar

Kau relakan tahta-Mu di surga
Masuk ke dunia tebus dosa manusia
* Kau relakan diri-Mu disalib
untuk tebus dosa manusia
Oh Yesus,, Tuhankuu..

Reff.
Kasih-Mu sungguh besar (2x)
Kami pun sudah dis'lamatkan
oleh kasih Tuhan Yesus yang besar
back to *

Coda:
Kami pun sudah dis'lamatkan
Oh Yesus,, Tuhankuu..

bad moment..
it happened last nite,, dunno why actually but i hate it cus i fell asleep just for like 30mins. Then i heard someone screamt out loud with some cry. OMG !! She woke me up en de fight began but i dont know wat's de probs is and i dont want to know bout it hahaha. too tired to think bout it,, so i just enjoy my life hihi
watch out ur mouth sist !! remember they are our parents !!
en for u,, dont be such a kepo lahh..

all about these last few days

hari2 dmn gw sering jln klr bareng tmn, cm utk haha hihi or mkn
bwad gw pribadi gw sangat senank akan hal itu
tp di lain sisi gw sngat kecewa dgn diri gw
blom bisa kontrol badan dan waktu yg udah dikasi en udah ada
gw masih aja sering tidur mlm krn maksa wpun bdn dah teler
dan ini bqin gw jd moody klo udah cape
yeaa it's my fault,, sorry God !

tpatnya hari ini, gw mulai drop en down dgn smwa yg tjdi
hr ini gw bnar2 ceroboh, hr ini gw bnr2 cape,
en gw udah bqin bbrp org kcewa
gw bner2 mrasa bodoh ktika 2 hal itu tjdi hari ini
ga seharusnya gw bgitu dan ga seharusnya gw lupa akan jdwal yg ada
i'm very sorry to you all..

ditambah lagi dgn kondisi otak gw yg bnr2 lelah
banyak hal yg harus gw kerjain dlm mgg2 ini dan smwanya jdi 1
gw bingung, gw pusink, gw cape, dan bqin gw jdi gmpank emosi
ada hal yg mnurut gw bs ga gw urus sedlm ini krn mrk shrsna bs bantu gw
tp semwa itu tyt emank harus gw yg kerjain,,
jujur aja mreka blom bs gw kasi tanggunk jawab
Skola.. TO 4 - UN - YearBook
Greja.. Rapat Pengurus yg harus ngmg-in byk hal
1 yg bqin gw kcewa,, gw mrasa bnr2 jd sumber dari sgala sumber di rmaja
mreka bnr2 harus bertanya dlu k gw untuk sgala sesuatunya
yg gw sadari saat ini, gw cm sbg ketua2 'n ketua1 pun trus btanya sama gw
btanya dlm arti butuh jwbn / keputusan dr gw
ini yg gw heran,, gw mau mreka blajar bwad menentukan kputusan
tp ya inilah kenyataannya,, gw harus sabar dan blajar utk mdidik mreka
blom lagi yearbook yg gw harus urus smwa..
pusink pusink pusink !!
bnr2 sedih bwad hari ini dgn sgala yg udah terjadi :(

aniwai,, thanks really much GOD for all these jobs that you've given to me..
makasih banget klo Tuhan udah kasi kpercayaan sama Icha bwad smwa tgs ini,,
i'll try to do my best just for YOUR NAME :)
kasi Icha kekuatan Tuhan,, Icha bgng harus ngadepin smwa ini..
otak kebagi2 dan harus bs kelar kira2 dlm 2 mgg ini..
Thanks bwad FirmanMu hari ini yg bnr2 kasi Icha kekuatan ~

taq tawu ahh jdulna apahh.

hr mgg melelahkan skaligus menyenangkan
dtamba hr snen sengsara namun jg menyenangkan
hahahaha.

hari minggu,,
hari perjuangan berada di greja dr jem stenga 7 pagi sampe stenga 4 sore
cape? pasti iya donk.
tp gw sangat menikmatinya bs playanan spanjang d greja itu
kbaktian pertama untuk VG bersama teman
lalu kbaktian remaja untuk jd liturgos dan VG lagii
snenk banged banged rsana bs beri berkat mlalui pujian2 kami
dan sangad bersyukur krn Tuhan udah kasi VG yang luar biasa bwad qta
talenta yg luar biasa shg mbuat VG ini jadi berkat bagi smwa
1 point yg bqin gw amad senank abis kbaktian rmaja
slaen kotbah Pdt. Agus yg bwad gw sgt luar biasa maknanya,,
wktu ngenalin Pdt. Agustinus Kermite a.k.a pdt baru qta,
he said a simple thing which made me feel soo happy..
he said: 'ini anak saya hahaha'
dy ngmg itu di dpn smwa jemaat gw smbil ngrangkul gw
feel WOW en seneeennnkkk bangedd !!! *lebai sehh hehe*
trus rapat perpus bntar smbil bcandaan so pasti
lalu trakhir adlh latian Kantata utk Paskah bareng om2 dan tnte2 hihi
seru sehh,, ada lagu susah dan ada lagu gmpank
gw blajar bersama mreka dlm baca not dan byk hal lagi yg gw plajarin
knal tnte2 dan om2 serta kk2 skool mgg yg geblek2 jga haha
abis kelar, qta pulang dehh :)
sampe d hums, ol en nonton tipi bntar ajahh
trus mandi en siap2 smwa anak2 pd dtg bwad lat agm
wpun tlat stenga jem, akhirnya qta kelar jg en cabootss
cabuts ke WGP bwad mkn malem en ktawa ktiwi
sampe 1 ropit ngeliatin qta smwa krn ktawa ngakak gtaw diri haha
maap tnte di blakang voni yg sampe gebrak meja pake gelas huahahhaa
ga lagi deh ke ropit, malu bangedd !! lols
berakhirlah smwa stelah qta plg ke hums hihi

hari senen,,
hari yg diawali dgn ujian praktek skool
cape banget krn hr mgg dah forsis badan kerja nonstop huahaha
ujian inggris.. sdiqit gagal yg impromptu..
ga ngerti deh gmn hasilnya,, pasrahh gw ga bisaa !!
klo agama.. terbilang sukses wpun td ngmg agak tersendat krn gugup hihi
kelar agama,, qta bersorak gembiraaaaa UP tggal vollii haha
foto2 bntar en mkn warsun dehh..
mkn bubur telor plus kangkung di warsun haha
gilaa mkn bubur seharian ><
ga pake lama, qta pun plg en gw molor lamaaa hahaha 3 jem kali,, lupa xP
abis itu ol bentar en lets goo to de rs
gilak rs aja ruamee tenan,, ngantri 1jem akhirnya masuk
trus ronsen en hasil akhir bhwa gigi bungsu gw mau tumbu 4-4na
hebad yaa barengan smwa.......
tpi gigi kanan atas udah mau tumbu dluan, mkana gusi dah bgkak
dan ini yg bqin sakit slama 2 hr ini tyt
yahh ap bole buat akhirna cm dikasi obad anti bgkak
trus bwad cabut calon gigi bungsu yg bawah itu nunggu sakid lagi aja baru k dokter lagi
geblek deh nie gigi haha ga beress xP

that's all about my 2 days journeys :)

ada apa c dgn hr ini ?

hari ini bs gw blg sangat menyenangkan,,
ktawa ktiwi sama tmn, berjuank up jg, en jln2 k mol bsama
tpi ada bbrp hal ganjal di lingkungan rmh gw
bnr2 ga ngerti apa yg sala sama diri gw ndiri hr ini
dari pagi, tmn2 gw dah dtg k hums bwad blajar
dan respon mba gw udah ga enak bwad gw minta tolong
dtambah lagi gw dgr kabar buruk yg mengecewakan gw d grj
trus nyok jg ga beda sama mba gw,, sama aja anehnya
udah gitu gw jg cape en butuh diam d rumah
tiba2 terlontar kalimat maksiat yg gw anggap krg sopan
dari mulut nyokap gw ndiri hmpf
apalagi yg krg ??
bingung sbenernya ada apa sihh hari iniii ?!?!
gw mrasa ada yg aneh dgn mrk di skliling gw..

sorry GOD i can't feel perfectly Your existence here..
i know i have a big probs with Our relationship en it's bcos of me..
give me strength, God ~

wats goin on my life

there r some things i wanna share bout 2day en some days in de past
first of all,, today i got a damnie tiring day
i slept late last night en i have to woke up early this morning
cause some of them wanted to study at my house,,
then went to school to do our best in our practical test
and finally we went to de mall to watch de cinema
after it was done,, i decided to come back home
took a bath en went to de church again yippiie..
wohoo mantabb deh hari ini, ga brasa ada ujian praktek wekeke

but there's sumthing which hurted my deepest heart
i do dissapointed with all she has done to us
i do very sad to see u change again for these weekends
she's totally change and i don't what has happened or wat's goin on her
i can't say anything to talk bout it,,
but 1 thing i believe if i will always pray everything de best for her
i hope it will be happen en u'll have ur own commitment
so then i don't need to have private msg to u in sms
God will happen,, i do believe it :)
help me, GOD !!