mini reunion

wahh i'm SHOCK !!
speechless en soo damn happy ..
i really don't understand how cool are they hahaha
i really can't believe they will do it just for me
they are awesome ~

this summer i'll have my seminar camp in Sweden
en i'll stay in Norway for like 5 nyts in Tonis' house
for this kinda situation, i do really excited en happy already
then i told my other friend from Germany and my other Norwegian friend
about my summer plan,, then guess wat they said ?!
they really want to meet me, wherever en whenever it's possible ..
i do really really speechless when she said my Germany's friend is searching for the flight
flight for her to go to Norway just for our mini reunion
OH MY GODD !!
and my other Norwegian friend wants to meet me also in Norway,, WOW !!
i really can't believe if it's gonna be happen to me

i met Tonis in Oslo, Norway around 4 years ago
she looks so different with the last time i met her
ofcourse chaaa,, come on.. it was 2002 hahaha .
when our first meeting at the hotel's lobby, she looked really tall
but me ?? not at all hahaha poor me ~
and how about this 1 ?!
Eike who's from Germany tries to meet me this summer
she's thinking to meet me in Norway when i'm there
i don't know exactly what my expression will be when i meet her again
my last time i met her was 2002,, err 7 years agoo..
just the same like Hanne who's also from Norway
and 7 years ago was my last time to meet her..
see how fast the time flies away hahaha .

well i'm freaking EXCITED to meet them again as a mini reunion !!!
i'll be there as soon as possible gurls ~
~ HOW LUCKY I AM !! ~

Beautiful Savior

when i hear "Jesus" in my heart, don't know why i really feel comfortable
and all my burdens like already gone away..

hari ini bner2 melelahkan,,
dari kegiatan gw en otak gw yg lagi byk pikiran hmpf
entah krn cape ato apa ga bisa, gw ga ngerti..
VG gw hr ini kacau,, ga konsen en emank cape
tp di luar itu,,
gw bnr2 dpt bantuan en dpt support gra2 pkataan singkat org grj gw
'hidup itu pilihan en ga semwa yg kita mau bs kita lakuin'
that's wat he said to me ~
bantuan jg ada bwad gw dr berbagai pihak dlm bqin liturgi
senenk banget akhirnya bs kelar en tggal di masukin aja k kompie

hri ini udah cukup mrasa cape dgn penuhnya otak gw
gtaw apa penyebabnya,, gw mrasa kecewa dgn diri gw
urusan greja smwa kteter en serba mdadak huxx
ditambah lagi mgg dpn jg ga bisa k remaja lagi
sudahlah,, hidup ini emank pilihan dan gw harus pilih yg terbaik
maav banget temen2..
kangen sibuk di greja en bs konsen disitu,,
stidaknya more than 50% gw bs konsen ngurus greja itu

untuk skrg ini, gw lagi byk yg perlu dikerjain
dr sibuknya skola persiapan untuk ujian2 semwa,,
trus ada cisv yg harus gw ikutin acara2nya,,
en ditambah greja yg gw mulai aktif di kbaktian umum
gw bukan mengeluh dgn semwa kerjaan yg udah jd pilihan gw
tp dsini gw lebih mrasa kteteran dgn smua itu..
gw pengen smwanya bs gw atur dgn max jd bs dilakuin smwa
tnpa gw harus pusink krn itu kteteran :(

sorry for all my frens, especially frens in korem yg gw tinggalin trus
gw tau peran gw besar dsana, tp sikon bnr2 bqin gw ga bs kya dl
gw pun jg sedi krn skrg terlihat cuek dgn remaja huff
help me GOD ~

in my prayer, icha bnr2 senenk krn bs mrasakan Tuhan
icha jg ditamba smangad wkt majelis pbina ngmg kata2 di atas
trus mlm ini icha mrasa tenaankk banget saat doa en dgr nama Yesus di hati
rasanya smwa beban itu bisa diatasi dgn bersandar sama DIA
i just wanna say,,
Jesus is really a Beautiful SAVIOUR !!!
thanks LORD for Ur strength..

last week

post ini hanya ingin mencritakan hari2 kmaren yg dah laluu
mgg lalu sehh bnr2 perjuangan keras ga klr rumah
klr rumah cm bwad ke skolah doank huee
perjuangan keras blajar mati2an buat TO
dan hasilnya cukup mgembirakan wpun masi ada bbrp yg ngaco
bbrp ul yg masi ga tuntas en sdiqit mengecewakan

de special day for me was on fri till sun :)
seruuu skalee 3 hr ituhh !!!
hari jumat adlh hr trakhir TO di mgg itu,,
trus plg skola beres2 barang en packing
lalu tacuuu ke JHCC bareng tmn2 nci gw yg amad gilaa
bcanda taq taw diri di dlm boil hahahhaa kocak
ngaps tuh k JHCC ??
so pasti qta nonton JASON MRAZ in Java Jazz Festival 2009
mantab boooo !!!!!!!!!!
rame hebad yoo en serunya minta ampunn wekeke
lari2an en pgank2an serta demped2an hihi
plg dgn teler en puyenk,, so i fell a sleep in the car
langsung tidur sampe rmh en ...

dtglah hr sabtu di pagi hari pk 05.00
harus mesti kudu jln pk 06.00 ke Puncak bwad PC 1
wah wah perjalanan panjang yg ga ngantuk sblomnya
tpiii qta teler bgitu nyampe sana hihi
kenalan dgn org2 baru (leaders) yg seru en menyenangkan
banyak blajar dr mereka
dan punya ksempatan utk ldr's training bareng pagi itu
finally de camp was start ...
wohoo !! pengalaman ptama gw bwad bs maen bareng anak2 kecil lagi
dlu gw sbagai anak2 kecil itu yg ikut acara,,
tp skarang gw diharuskan ikut evaluasi en breafing acara
yg artinya gw dah dibentuk dan dipersiapkan utk bs jd leader
leader yg btugas menjaga anak2 itu ..
asekk sehh pengalaman pertama,,
jd bs kenal mreka2 yg masi kecil dgn kepribadian yg beda
en aplg di cisv,, mreka jg punya latar blakang yg beda pula
asekk lah pokoknya !!

i'll be back on 21st-22nd of March for these Int. Ldr's Training :)

PreCamp 1

date is 7th-8th of March 2009
place is in Wisma Anugrah
participants are delegations, ex-delegations, en many more

start from Jason Mraz concert on 6th of March in Java Jazz Festival 2009
it was soooo COOLL !! hahaha
never thought it's gonna be very FUN en very WOW !!
back home was like 23.35 WIB,,
i was too tired so i decided to go to sleep ASAP when i'm home

the next morning, i need to wake up early
cause i'll go for this PreCamp at 6am WIB
long journey to go made us to be there at the place
there was just Bu Jo who have been there b4 us
then after all the new leaders came over to the camp,,
we started our Leaders' Training with Bu Yaya
although i'm not allowed to be a leader yet, but i learnt many things from it
and i meet new friends between the leaders there hehe
but the thing is i need to have more energy as the seminar participant
cause they just served me as a leader to help all the staffs
the camp was start en we joined with them to play
so wat did i do in that camp?
first day, we tried to control the kids in the games
we tried to have fun with them
we tried to know them and make them comfortable to be at the camp
and the special jobs for all the leaders and seminar participants,,
we had an evaluation at NIGHT and breafing for the next day

this the 2nd day which also mean as the last day
sad to hear about it,, but happy also to hear about it
cause i can do my own 'hibernation' hahahahaha lol
back to the topic ~
2nd day started with breakfast, games, packing, games, evaluation, en done !
okeii let me tell you wat i've done there
cause of i'm old enough between the participants,,
they chose me to be a leader of the team
umm i have a mini group consist of 8 people (include me)
we need to do the games, found the clue and the answers
for myself,, this is my 1st time to lead a mini group in cisv
wat shud i do are :
1. i need to make them comfortable with this new group
2. i need to lead them as a group
3. i need to communicate with them
for no.3, i do need bravery to speak out first with them
like 'perkenalan' en questions or many other things..
how was my group,, first of all we didn't know each other yet
then i tried to know each other by saying their own name
and the game was finally start !!

in indonesian dehh..
ptama2 seh ya gitulah masih pd males2an, aplg blom kenal
tp stelah bbrp pos qta lewatin dan gw usahain bwat mrk nyatu
akhirnya berhasil dan mrk malah saling bantu en lari2 donk
otomatis gw harus kasi smangad dgn ikut lari2 hihihi
yaa ada bbrp yg ga mau ikut lari2 ptama2nya
just like they didn't enjoy the game..
it was fun en i wass soooo happy cause at the end,
mreka respect sama gw en jadi mudah bwad duduk per klompok
mreka juga jadi nyariin gw stelah games slese..
first experiences with many happy things i've got with them ~
qta 1 klompok bs dqet kya gitu cm hanya dlm waktu 3-4 jam..
hebadnya CISV !! Proud to be 1 of de CISVers..

well guys,,
there were just a short sharing from me bout my happiness
my happiness to be a new 'leader' in a small group :)
thanks guys !!

buat gw, CISV adlh tmpat gw blajar byk hal en bs ngembangin otak gw hihi ~
oh aniwai, i had a freakin weird en bad dreams on sat nites :(

oh well..

wat can i start in this post ?
for sure,,
i do really happy to have this BEAUTIFUL weekend
after de whole tests week with stressfulness..
but beside that,,
i have probs with my score aniway :(

i know i got worse than the 1st smester
many of my tests were failed
not just the normal test, but also the tryout
that's the point !
i got many bad scores in my tryout for now
and for geo,, i don't know wat to say
en i just can say i was too stupid to get score..
but for english,, hmpf ~
really sad to myself & feel like i'm so stupid
*back to indo*
mxdna itu dmn gw skarang terlalu malas untuk blajar
juga terlalu cuek banget sama nilai
alhasil,, i just got a good score between all of the bad scores in 2nd smester
oke then,, that's all was my fault ~

damn so sad to hear bout that..
i wanna say sorry to GOD,,
to myself,, to myFRIEND,, and my family..
bad scores for this 2nd smester :(

bad score

hari ini bs di bilang hari baik gw tp skaligus hr buruk gw
hr ini tryout byasa2 aja dgn soal ekop yg susahh
akun seh gampank deh ga terlalu susah

oh well..
ist dimulai en lgsg ke kantin bwad blajar agama
di situ gw ktemu beqh yg lagi blajar ma yg lain jg
tiba2 gw mdgr kabar buruk dr rbeq
kalo nilai geo gw kembali merah dgn nilai hancur (45)
sjujurnya gw bgng harus kya gmn lagi,,
gw cukup pusink utk blajar geo
gw blajar semampu gw dan hasilnya hanya bkisar 45-50
itu blajar ga blajar lohh !!
gw taw gw terlalu sombonk en byk ngmg
dan gw ga pernah buktiin dgn nilai gw
gw terlalu bodoh dan egois shg gw jg ga bs atur diri gw ndiri
gw tenank2 en hepi2 blajar agm sampe akhirnya kelar jg
kelar agm langsung ngobrol2 d bawah
en tiba2 lagi saia di toel Pa Yo dgn kabar buruk utk k2x nya..
saia ditegur krn nilai ing gw yg byk merah
yahh udah gw sebut semua di atas en mbuat gw makin drop

stelah diinget2,, ul gw smester 2 ampir semwa TURUN
entah musti sediihh.. kesell.. marahh.. ato gmn lagi gw bgng
emank gw jg jauhh jadi malas di smest 2 ini
mgkin gw akan kena omel di pembagian rapot mid smester 2 nanti
sulid banget untuk bs terus rajin en niat blajar
gw lebih terganggu utk bersenank2 drpd blajar
dan hasilnya bgini,, ulangan2 gw kembali merah
ga mau lah balik jadi gw yg kya kls 10
pusink bgng sedi superstress... !!!!!!!!!!!!

KN banyak banget bahannya !!!!!!
GEO gilaaaaaaa !!!!!!
INGGRIS jugaaaaaa !!!!!

wat can i say besides dat wordss.. ?!

huaaa edan eui hari ini..
TO hr ptama kelarr dgn tenang2,,
wpun amad cape ye mata baca ul BI huahaha ~
lalu pulang langsung dilanjutkan dgn belajar mat bersama
awalnya hanya bertiga dgn penuh kepusingan dan kelelahan
plus kedinginan pula juga wekeke
namun tiba2,, dtglah mreka2 para lelaki mau blajar bareng
yahh apa daya,, kami langsung aja pinda tmpat ke bawah
en blajar bareng ngajarin para lelaki itu
dgn tnpa disengaja gw jadi blajar dgn sriuss

utk gw pribadi, tyt lebih enak ngajarin org drpd hrus blajar ndiri
jujur aja,, ngajarin org itu lebih byk ilmu yg gw dapet
contohnya aja tadii..
awal2 bertiga cm ngerjain soal sediqit krna dilanda malas
tp waktu para lelaki dtg en wajib ngajarin mreka
di situ gw juga sambil blajarr waktu ngajarin mrekaa
tnpa disadari ya emank bgitulahh ~
serunya blajar bareng,, tp ga rame2 amad en ga lama2 amadd

sekian kegiatan gw hari ini yg ckup memusingkan en melelahkan
dari melelahkan otak sampe melelahkan fisikk huahahaha .
mari berjuank kawan !!!
give all our best for this tryout,, ora et labora ~


private msg from my heart..
sorry if i say u've changed a lot since de last time we had fun together,,
en i feel so hesitate between 'iRi' or 'cEmbuRu'..
sad to have this feeling hmpf
can we back to the beautiful time in the past ??