aujourd'hui

what a confusing title for them who don't learn french,
it means today hahaha

well today for me is perfect
semwa gw alami tp untunk ga ad kt boxan dr td
bangun jem 10 dgn sdiqit cape krn tdur jem 4 en kena insomnia pula
trus nyelesaiin tgs2 skola (web kompie & agm)
akhirna itu semwa kelar di siank hr hihi
trus tdur siank yg ajib bgt krn semlm ga bs tdur
bangun2 lgsg pilih2 foto bwad dicetak
then took a bath en cabud k moll
mkn Kaiten sushi yg uenaakk ~
muter2 di tengah kerumunan org di mol yg b'jubel
lalu pulanngg dan saia nyetir hihi
gila ngaco bgt ! *maav yahh*
sampe rmh,, mood nyokap jd jelek..
ntah knp emosi nyok lg memuncak wew
di kmr ngurusin smwa masalah greja yg menggilaaaa
smwa mengabari mendadak hmpf
akhirna smwa kelar. yipiii !!
thanks GOD for all i've got today :)

resep 3B

berdoa . bersyukur . bersukacita

slap me right on my cheek !!
itu yg seharusnya gw lakukan slm ini
tepatnya adalah hr ini
tp apa yg terjadi ??
not at all ~
i'm really sorry for it..
malu rasanya sama Tuhan dgn kelakuan2 gw
kelakuan2 gw yg gw blg mulai ngelantur blakangan ini
mslh kecil bqin semwa jd brantakan
tepat sblm gw sate dgn tema 'Resep 3B' ini
gw mlakukan sesuatu yg seharusnya ga gw lakuin
stelah itu lgsg baca kalimat ini dan gw menangis
krn gw mrasa Tuhan menampar gw wpun klmt itu simpel
sorry ..

promise to change my life en try to do de 3B recipe :)

sin

sad to be me
sad to feel like this for myself
sad really for something i've done
also i embarrassed to GOD..
i did sumthing bad en i hurt HIM for many times
i'm sorry GOD !
especially today,,
i really can't understand what happens with me
i was trying to control my emotion but i can't

first,,
my sate today talks about de initiative to forgive
GOD teaches en reminds me to forgive everyone for many kind of probs (small or big probs)
but after like an hour, i lost a temper
which just happened cos of a simple thing
~ cm gra2 ga jd pegi jln2 cos si cc mo jln2 jg ma tmn2nya. ngmg nya si cc ga enak en sewot gt as usual en gw kesel krn ga jd pegi dmn gw dah niat bwad pegi. ~
i lost a temper again with ngebanting pintu kamar nyok
fyi. i've never been like that again since long time ago hmpf

second,,
many times i almost said bad words when i got stress or angry especially at school
i've never realize if i'm gonna think bout that words again
it's like weird if all that words are out from my mouth
but i always almost said it huxx
i also always try to keep that words, so then i don't say it
i also still trying to not think about that bad words when i got stress or angry

i can't understand why must this happen to me again
don't have any idea why i did all of it
a simple word i always say to HIM:
sorry GOD ~
i know it's easy to say sorry,
but i really wanna try to control myself not to think en do the same mistakes like i've done before
thanks GOD for reminds me in everybadthings i've just did
pray for myself to get back to YOUR way..
i feel if i'm lost for now,,
don't feel YOUR attendence in my deepest heart :'(
find me out en bring me back to YOUR side, please !
* MAAV *

de night

yipiie !!

as i told you if i wanna everything
to make me feels happy for de rest of my day
en here it was..
i feel so happy cos i went out from house
i met them en had fun with 'em
had some lessons for de test tomoss
had some chit-chat
had a new story of life
had some experiences from others' stories
had some smiless
en also had some 'cembetut' face
no probs lahh..
finally we could go home en smile to others again
overall,,
i did so much fun to be with y'all, guys !
thanks for this time hahaha ^^
GBU

happiness

it's not really my day ~
i did so much fun for today
i had so many laughs for today
i had so many smiles for today
i got it all just in my lovely class,,
but there's something makes me sad
(can't tell, sorry)

i just wanna enjoy my day today,,

so i wanna do everything
that makes me happy for the rest of my day

give me smile just like the other day
forget everything that made me sad
i'll be happy just with my Holy GOD ^^

question:
is there something wrong with me today ?

ps. Happy Birthday, Mom !

univ. oh univ.

1 word in my mind for now UNIVERSITY !!

senenk bgt denger mrk2 yang udah punya skola bwad kuliah
mungkin mereka udah lega krn udah ketrima di 1 univ yg mrk mau
yahh palink tinggal embel2 persiapan kirim ini itu aja
lalu gw ?? apa kabar dunia ??
pegank univ cm 2 dan 22na buka tes itu di awal taon 2009
gila bgd krn itu sangat mepett ~
1 univ di bln januari & 1 lg di bln feb (krn gel.2)
gmana caranya gw tenank ?
mreka2 itu udah punya tempat kul dan gw blom
takud itu pasti wajar..
ap jadina klo gw ga lulus tes ?
cm 1 yg bs nguatin gw dan bqin gw yakin gw pasti bisa,
He is GOD !
cuma DIA yg bs nenangin diri gw dari smwa ketakutan itu
semwa janji2 ttg rencana indah-Nya pd gw dan qta smwa
thanks GOD i still have u.. ^^

insomnia

insomnia itu penyakit kga bs tidur
yess dats me for now hmpf
sebal skalii dr kmrn tdur brasa ga enak en susah bgt
sempet ngeguling2 dlu cari posisi yg pas,
baru abis itu ktiduran dgn sedirinya huxx

byk pikiran ?? mgkin bs di blg gt..
skrg yg mjd pergumulan gw cm 1 yaitu kuliah
kuliah dmn en ditrima ato ga, gw hanya bs nunggu nasib bln jan or feb
ga ad yg bs gw lakuin slain mnunggu en persiapan
takud bgt gagal. takud bgt ga lulus. takud blaa blaa blaa.
gw tau ga seharusnya gw takud krn Tuhan pasti siapin rencana indah di balik semwa ini
so yeaa,, i just need to wait. pray. en prepare for everything.
slaen itu jg ad pikiran2 ttg diri gw dgn fams en diri gw dgn kawan2
skola jg pasti bnr2 bqin gw jadi pusink
gilaa gilaa..
rsana pusink jg musti ngadepin smwa ini
but i still try to be strong in GOD for all these 'pikiran'
i believe that HE never leaves us alone en HE has many beautiful plans for us :)